JenniferB

I AGREE ! ;-) Jennifer !
and the best is you get a big BISOU from a French Guy !!!!!

LOVE,

andre

You may be rambling, but, it’s a very enlightened ramble. It was interesting read what you think, it comes close to mirroring my own state of mind recently. I want to tell the world to fuck off, leave me alone, go away. Unfortunately, I can’t as I need the world just to stay alive, and others, whom I care about, need me tro help keep them “in” the world in the sense that I do things they can’t or won’t, for various reasons. As you say, it’s sometimes easier to keep the peace, but, it would be nice to be able to please no-one other than myself, even if it’s only once in a blue moon.

Memories are precious, they are one way of knowing where we’ve been, and if they’re happy ones, they give us a better feeling, about ourselves and the world in general. I hope your memories are more happy than sad. Take comfort in the knowledge that people care about you and would miss you if you left their lives in any way.

Wouldn’t it be great if we could put our memories through photoshop, edit, soften and enhance them
Jen…........what an amazing thought….......I’m in for that one…..
This is an excellent read….............and right up my alley….................you say it so well!!!
And I’m glad you’re just behind the screen…......I’m forcing myself not to turn the monitor around right now ;)

thanks for sharing your thoughts Jen : )...that second paragraph is one I can relate to only too well…but trying to balance it out…through learning a lot of life lessons…
...funny how the little snippets here and there..on rb…can piece together, to a point, the person behind them to those on the other side of the screen ; ) xx

Thank you for shareing it was a very insightful read.

Gotta go for a while… Back later. Ciao 4 Now.

Jennifer B
XOX

Hang in there Wortho….. we know you are still around

I have to say Miss JB this is a brilliant piece of self-reflective writing… you certainly described life as i know it too…..
“Life itself becomes a metaphor for codependency and we let others who depend on us suck the life force out of us. In taking care of others we lose ownership of ourselves… Our identities fall into the messed up, murky mosh-pit of everyday living.”
You say it so well and I totally relate…...and had a smile about the photoshop comment…hmmm….wish I could photoshop a LOT of things in my life LOL…..
Regardless of your thoughts about yourself and your creativity, I for one both “see” and admire the small glimpses of “you” that you release to the e-world via your writing and art…..however camouflaged they might be by the anonymity or freedom of the internet

Our identities fall into the messed up, murky mosh-pit of everyday living.
now that’s a classic line if ever i’ve heard one!!! LOL
ooo, and i wanna know the secret!
come and escape here with me! hehehe
;-) xox

You have such a ‘no-fucking-nonsense’ way of looking at life. I am all for that ............. the real soul and the real person that is YOU Jen, just brings so much joy to the folk on RB who are following this little snippet of your life’s journey….....because you choose to take us into your heart and share your joy, grief and ordinariness with us…......... You will leave us all with fond memories when we are long gone from RB. You are real. That is very, very nice…..............xxLindaxx…......... :)

Oh hell yeah! The grind of day-to-day living often sucks any creativity out of the brain like a vacuum. But there’s a whole lot to be said for endurance and perseverance. I’m much more appreciative of the small things these days.

_{don’t let the bastards grind you down, you are well loved by many}

so well put honey… just ramble away any old day… I love what you think about

who ever/whenever R.B.er’s keeps it real…it works for me…:)
communication is the key, we each have a door….........

BRAVO!!! It is fun getting into your head :)

rambling is GOOD !! sometimes i think i make my own kife harder than it has 2 b :)
that was good reading Jen :)

well said flashbacks i hate em but have to deal with em constantly when theres a version of photoshop to soften the flashes and maybe add a little surface blur be shore to let me no =]] plus
i enjoy your rambles jenn so ramble on

BELLA ..BRAVO X

Very well said, you’ve certainly touched the nerves of a lot of us. Very insightful and real.
xoxo~Kate

10 feet tall and bullet proof my dear :) laughing!

so cool Jen… and I love a good ramble … all good with me…...:)

Thats the best ramble i’ve read :)
Fucking Brilliant!!!

I’m in reverie inside your so called rambling
I say bollocks.
Your (rambling) writing is insightful, it is pure, it is real, it is hopeful, it is whimsical, and it is you.

I love the idea of taking memories and softening
I love the idea of taking memories and sharpening…

You are right we show glimpse here of who we are….for me I have a voice that I’m often too shy to use in the “real” world.

I too have to shut everything off and retreat to my cave….strangely enough I’ve learnt to retreat to my cave while still functioning in my so called normal world, of work and commitments. I’m sure nobody realises I’m on auto pilot.

Wonderful and thought provoking writing, Jen… xxx

well Jen…I promise you, this piece has opened my eyes…..it is so bloody true…. I for one, absolutely HATE confrontation…so I’ve chosen to be a people pleaser, which is actually sickening because you leave yourself totally out of the equation so that someone else will be happy and you walk away miserable because you didn’t say or fight for what you wanted to say or fight for…..eeeuuuww…..I hate that feeling!! I have literally allowed the life-force to be sucked out of me by the needy…to the point where I could no longer smile….I could only cry with them because that is all they do!! well…I realised that and only I can change it….like everything else in my life. I truly am not obligated to get immersed in the sidewalk level of the misery of the world and I need to make some beautiful memories for myself too…which might sound selfish to some but truly, it no longer sounds or feels slefish to me. This writing of yours truly confirmed that!! Thanks Jen. xxxx

wow its a party!!! woohoo :)))

ok ill drink urs then :))

Creating letters and words out of my thoughts, that are unfortunately, due to a cocktail of mood stabilising chemicals, pretty limited. Shaft the Mood Stabilising Chemicals… We take them because there is need to appear operation in the world we need to provide what makes us survive. It’s words like these that have form and meaning and create music that resonates in the minds of many – because we know the same rhythms as you.

I’m onvinced that it’s not the creativity that is so limited by such ‘stabilisers’ as it is our experience of them. The volume and one is limited in our experience of life rather than the sound of life itself being silenced.

Write on dear Jen – in the words of You’ve Got Mail – You are a Lone Read.

As far as your observance of the Internet personality versus the Public and Real Personalities I believe you are very right. I wonder about how many memory creation moments I am missing out on by sitting right here looking at a screen.

whisky?? Mmmmi like malted whisky on ice :) *pours everybody a Drambuie :)))

hahahaha LOLLL MMmmmmm malibu and milk :)))))))))

This is an amazing piece of writing Jennifer and so true. Well said and beautifully written. I hope you are well. xoxo

hehehe maybe :)

nup…u know too many big words :P

oh darn, and i bet it’s a juicy one too! LOL
recover, i don’t think i’ll ever recover, they are still at it now! hehehe ;-) xox

Well Jen, if it means anything, or helps in any way, i like chicken too : )

well, i try to do my part, small as it is : )

LOL, i’m cute all the time, especially in cyberspace! ;-) xox

please don’t kill me! LOL ;-) xox

oh god, than if being cute gets someone off the hook, I’m Shit out of luck.
please leave the ears, ok? their my my endearing trait. . .

pheeeew! LOL ;) xox
oh, you poor darling, don’t let it get you down! ;) xox
here something to cheer you up, two favourite words.
torture and garden hehe

BRAVO!!!! :) it can’t get better than that!!! it’s funny how the minds at times just takes over and the happy or fucked up memories we love to hold to so dearly as if they were precious pearls, takes us on a trip. sometimes that trip might be back to the past, maybe happy ones- god he was a great lover or fucked up ones-
that fuck never told me he was married. then there are times it takes us to the future… neither are helpful. sucking up our life as you said. and when we come to think about it, the most important time is… the present. if one stays in the present, the moment of being in the now, one would see the past and
the future aren’t important at all. for the past is the past, and the future will come
with the steps we taking NOW. Now I’m rambling on… it’s early here, so i might not be making any sense… oh well, what’s in important is that i LOVE WHAT YOU WROTE!!!! :)

mmmm, very interesting and enjoyable indeed. ;-) xox
btw, i’m loving the way your new hot red smokin lips light up my activity. ;-P xox

Thank you for sharing this enlightened bit of insightful rambling. Should you find life’s photoshop, I’ll happily be the first guinea pig in line to test it.

Memories are what make us, us though, aren’t they?
I think we all have shit we’d rather forget, change, do over, relive…
But there is no photoshoping the truth…..;-))
Onward and Upward
Like Buzz Lightyear said in Toy’s “To Infinity…and Beyond”

I’m wherever You are
You’re one in the same
whoever you are
whatever Your name

Care not where
nor what you were then
Who you are now
means more than you’ve been

~ RRS ~ Outdoors2 4/08

Oh I forgot….
“I DON’T GIVE A FUCK…;-P”

excerpt from a longer one

I live them too! “What me worry” _{Alfred E Newman}
Do I need to start swimming again?
seems I just got back…xxx

Alfred E Newman was (is) Mad magazines spokesperson who really doesn’t give a fuck…;-)

Well I read the mag all through my youth still do on occasion and that’s how he is. ha…;-)

btw, have you seen this film
if not i highly recommend you download it or hire it asap, you are gonna love it. hehe
plus it’s a very different role for funny man jim carrey and very on par with your rambling here! LOL ;-) xox

Indeed we do.
Great pice of writing – very true.

This piece reminds me of your man, George Carlin. May he R.I.P. It’s self reflective, but it also makes some good points about how we all relate to one another. You are beautiful, insightful and you rock many people’s worlds. Whether you in front of or behind of a computer screen you make an impact. If you’re taking stock of your situation that’s just fine. Use this time to be you. Write when the spirit moves you. Play with photoshop to twist things up. Be Jennifer B. at all costs.
Much Love.

Fucking Fantastic!!!!! Brilliantly said Jennifer :) xx

“Wouldn’t it be great if we could put our memories through photoshop”.... THAT is too funny… I hang my issues on my sleeve :)

Insightful…real and wonderfully said. Nice writing!

OUTSTANDING, I LIKE EVERYTHING YOU WRITE JENNIFER

Ha Jennifer, from my point of view your brain already “is” in the writing frame again, possibly never really leave it ;))

I LOVED this….........so TRUE and so HONEST…...........and I wished more people thought like this!!! :)

i thought you said you were having writers block
bullshit

this some pretty awesome thoughts
and yah anyway i like to photoshop my memories
hahaha .. soften heartbreak and crop out people i dont want

ahhhhhhh

This is a mirror of reallity and as I said before i´m happy that I saw the pure one insid the mirror without been lead by illussions.
Great way od expression and reflections.
happy to be part of this gift you gave to the world.
Thanks JENNIFER.