Ugly Inside

yep, I think one of the tutorials I took pieces from was a burnt flesh tutorial, thanks red addiction.

thanks lisa, sorry I haven’t had time to visit your new work yet, I’ve been burying myself in photoshop today. xox

Thanks Roy, just learning how this texture on skin thingy works out.

Thanks Mel, another old piece reworked with a new look. :)

thanks sexyeyes, a bit of a dark series, but it’s all based on lines from old poetry I’ve written.

Thanks Moshe, just making my way through a few new PS tutorials and redoing some old work. :)

Oh, but it can just take so long to catch up when I havent been around for a day or so, and I hate missing out on seeing everyxoxone’s new work!

Thanks sophie, oh I’m cruising along gently thanks, just redoing some old pieces of work now that I have a few new skills under my belt, I hope you’re doing well too. :) xox

thanks Jennifer, cool user name by the way… ;-)

thanks twb, it seems like forever since I was able to write poetry though, I wish I could be as prolific and inspirational as you! :)

really? well not very many people are aware of it, but jennifer B is just a pen name for me, still, I’ve grown kinda attached to it, I might even get my real name changed by deed poll some day. :)

Thanks helen, an old piece of work revamped due to a seemingly never ending spell of writer’s block. ;-)

thanks antanas, just trying out some new techniques. :)

Thanks shanina, so cool how you can have fun wounding and killing people in PS and get away with it. :)

Thanks Roz, some of my older words, prior to writer’s block, were pretty dark, but they’re strong enough to create images around. :)

Thanks Glen. :) xox

ah… self image and societal image is all a perception anyway. ;-) thanks tyf.

losing my real name and identity cost me my career in the past, not to mention attracted some very weird people into my life, so I guess I’m extra cautious with things like that now. :)

Thanks Rob, appreciate you dropping by to say so. :)

thanks rubyjo, oh jacqleen is just the most fantastic photographer, she captures emotion perfectly, I’m just someone who bashes people around in photoshop! lol

thanks dirtydish, great username by the way. :)

ah, this was more about self image and perception from days long gone now, thanks Java. :)

thanks Reynaldo, I love blending words with images. :)

Thanks Lynette. :)

Thanks Mukesh, old words given a new look. :)

Thanks Kendra. :)

Ah… human impulse to be reactive can be difficult to contain sometimes, I’ve also had my days of shooting off from the mouth prior to putting my brain into action, thanks Michael. :)

Fascinating, I’ve heard about the theory that when a face is perfectly symetrical it is portrayed as being beautiful, but so many people have cosmetic surgery these days to create the perception of the ideal face, that their character and personality seem to get cut away with the flesh and bone.

yes walt, I AM free from the past and all of it’s turmoil now, it’s just a journey worth telling and filing away in the form of Art is all. :-) xox

And such a sensitive, beautiful heart you have too. :) xox

It’s much easier to work on these pieces now the battle is well behind me, there was a time I couldn’t look at or read over my old work. Thanks Jim. :)

thanks awd. :)

nup, I had pics of me on here, but they’re gone now.

Thanks Tammera, you have some fascinating images in your gallery, I must get around to checking them out in depth more soon! :)

I’m so sorry to hear that nudefrog, and yes, I’ve been through the horror of sexual abuse by my father too, I spent a couple of years writing and painting away the pain of it, which took me into the depths of hell and back, but I finally found my way to the surface to breathe fresh air, and decided the sickness, ugliness and monstrous behaviour was all HIS… And none of it belonged to me any more. I wish you well and hope you’ve managed to come to terms with the past, moving on to the person who really counts, yourself. :)