You sit behind your mahogany desk,
varnished with a framed photograph of your family.
They look so serene, so content, so happy.
Certificates plaster your walls,
your qualifications – so impressive.
A ‘Doctor of the Mind’
qualified to tell others how to think, how to feel,
how to…..live.
Looking at paper records, asking loads of questions –
‘How do you feel today?’
‘I feel like crap’
‘Why do you think that is?’
‘I don’t fucking know, you’re the doctor.’
‘Well let’s have a positive attitude, can you verbalise your thoughts?’
Time to leave – time’s up. The silence ate it all up.
Your time is precious, there’s a queue outside your door.
A line of people in ‘low mood’ coming to ask you for…..
help.
So you have a sweet shop of supplies, all different colours.
‘Which sweetie shall we give you today little girl?’
You don’t think for one minute that all those pills will go tonight…
You don’t think about the consequences of eating too many sweeties….
You don’t….think.
Did you learn how to talk to people at University?
Did you learn how to look into their eyes and see their lifelessness?
Did you learn how to read faces?
Did you learn how to listen?
Did you learn…..compassion?
I didn’t think so.
You learned how to talk to people without looking at them.
You learned how to look and see nothing.
You learned how to ignore the pain on faces.
You learned how to hear but not listen.
You learned how to avoid compassion so you could lead a nice, cosy, warm life.
You learned….nothing.
Ignorance is bliss.
I hope you sleep well in your bed tonight and when another teen dies,
I’ll be there to remind you that
You didn’t….do….anything.
Wake Up and Smell the Pain
This is based on real life and it’s a tragic situation that cannot be ignored any longer. Young people are dying due to the hypocrisy that is the mental health ‘system’.
I’m not going to make comments on this I’ve said it all….for now.
“Long Way To Happy” – Pink
One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I’ll never know
What love means to me but oh
I’ll keep on rolling down this road
But I’ve got a bad, bad feeling
It’s gonna take a long time to love
It’s gonna take a lot to hold on
It’s gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I’ve got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it’s gonna be a long long way to happy
Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I’m losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
too young to know i had it
So it didn’t hurt to lose it
Didn’t hurt to lose it
No but oh
I’ll keep on rolling down this road
But I’ve got a bad, bad feeling
It’s gonna take a long time to love
It’s gonna take a lot to hold on
It’s gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I’ve got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it’s gonna be a long long way
Now I’m numb as hell and I can’t feel a thing
But don’t worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the bottom of my heart
For all the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart yeah yeah
bamagirl38, 2 months ago
Omg this is excellent writing…............ So sad, yet so true…...............
Butterflies An..., 2 months ago
cries oh my…..and they should be reminded….great heartfelt piece..
i admire you
Clinton Tyree KM@, 2 months ago
I just wonder what someone who has never experienced mental or emotional “Illness” thinks qualifies them for a job supposedly helping them.
In my experience so far, their foremost skill seems to be writing illegible things on bits of paper to take to the chemist.
Gregory John O..., 2 months ago
I relate. Did he bother to read up on the side effects or the negatives of prescribing that with that. Did he bother to check all possibilities, to see if my Paranoid Schizophrenia was really a broken neck.
Thanks Jaybe
aspectsoftmk, 2 months ago
i favorited this because it feels like such a part of my life i have hated for some time…and because reading this again will also always remind me why i stopped running. xxxx i love you for writing this.
Anthony R. Pla..., 2 months ago
It is unfortunate how often this happens. But was it the initial training or the desperate need to be disengaged? No matter, the effect is the same… Shameful – Thanks for writing this! And thanks too for the lyrics…
T.D. Ruley, 2 months ago
wow, this is powerful…damn shrinks can never get it right…all about poppin pills to make the pain go bye-bye…compassion is what they lack as you have already said…great work once again…
dogpriest, 2 months ago
nice piece, and what you write is very true, being in the doctor situation, fuck those cun’t!! well done
Christopher Bi..., 2 months ago
this is anyone who sees a shrink and its usually those most in need that think thiswill work! its 10x worse if someone has been ‘directed’ to his ‘there’ becuase its for their own good, when it does no good, where does that leave them, and the system. (sorry just got home from work, maybe i should have waited…. lol)
Michael Oubridge, 2 months ago
Jacqi this is so moving, powerful and direct, well done for having the courage to speak out. You are so right, it has needed saying for years but everyone is afraid to come out and question the system publically.
Pinks lyrics are so perfect to go with this.
Well done!!!
Vimm, 2 months ago
anyone who has been to these people will share some of if not all of what you write. From the outset we can not depend on these people, despite some doctors thinking theyre god
Karen Cougan, 2 months ago
congrats….....I heard you Jaybe
xkc
suzee, about 1 month ago
Hi Jaybe, Expressed so well. Have to admit, I have never received any benefit from professionals when I was young, not much has changed over the years either. Yes you are right. We are going to get along very well :-)