Jaybe

For the last 5 years I’ve been researching my family tree. Since I began November 11th has had even more of a significance – many of my ancestors, close and distant, were in the military and so…

Today, I stood in silent contemplation amongst the trees .
I breathed in deep and, as the light shone above, through the leaves,
I inhaled memories….
Sweet thoughts of friendships new and …

Waiting….....
the anticipation….....giving rise to fear and trepidation….
Long silences, stifling the air that I breathe.
The tension, cuts like a knife
and scars my mind with though…

You tore my insides out, left me with a gaping hole,
cemented memories in my head, and watched me walk away.
A wisp of smoke that I can’t grab hold of smoulders in my soul.
I don’t have word…

Today, I spoke out and opened my mouth,
Eight years of the truth finally came out,
Words that had been silenced were free to appear
Without worry of consequence, without anguish or fear.
Th…

Can’t you see what you’re doing to me
Or are you just on a mission to
Nurture my soul to be bitter and
Twisted? Well I’m stronger now and
Right or wrong I’m going to win
Our little game…

Ok, so Chris (my other car is a Mercedes) Birtwhistle-Smith, see what you think of this my friend….

Since I was a child, I had a recurring dream – more of a nightmare actually.
I’m walki…

Meandering through medieval castle walls,
Breathing in a life I’d left behind,
Making pleasant conversation in pavement cafes.
Trying so desperately to clear my mind.
The surroundings so fa…

The strength to stand alone,
with the courage of conviction.
Mysterious, passionate, sensuous.
Whispering secrets across the skies.
Talking to me the only way you can.
Guiding me through t…

Look at the sea, watch the waves, feel the spray on your face.
See every drop of water? I love you more….
Walk in the woods, gaze up at the trees, feel the wind in your hair.
See every lea…

Why is my lifestyle such a problem for you?
Why do you hate me as much as you do?
Why does it concern you who sleeps in my bed?
Why are you worried about the thoughts in my head?
Why do you…

A thousand yellow butterflies fluttering simultaneously in the pit of my stomach…...
An ocean of poppies in a field of red, raising their faces to the midday sun….....
A rainbow arching t…

Please grant me the promise
Of meaningless, lustful kisses,
Deep passionate ones
And wisdom to know the difference.
Loving one day at a time;
Enjoying one night at a time,
Accepting hugs…

The mermaids have raised their game, they’ve played their winning card.
The temptation too much, the frustration too hard,
The will to carry on has faded into the distance
But please ignore …

Dance in my waves, sail in my ocean.
Let my heart be your surfboard of life.
Swim in my eyes and look inside my soul,
Feel the wind in your hair, the salt on your skin.
Walk the beaches of …

Simple things remind me of you, each and every day.
I try so hard to forget your face but in my mind it stays.
A vision of you standing next to me,
I can feel your presence but I can’t see. …

You sit behind your mahogany desk,
varnished with a framed photograph of your family.
They look so serene, so content, so happy.
Certificates plaster your walls,
your qualifications – so im…

It’s just gone 2 in the morning
And the world has turned away
There’s no love left to give you
And there’s nowhere safe to stay.

They found you at the bridge again
Same time, same place…

I wish someone would invent a light switch
That turned the whole world off…
Even just for an hour.

We’d have peace temporarily
Everyone would behave sensibly
And the world would become…

My mind screams silent words at you…..
Shut the Fuck Up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You’re doing my head in.
Talking at a rate of 1000 miles per hour..
My brain doesn’t work that …