Bitter

As my soul searches for enlightenment,
she wrings me out one last time.
No more hope for contentment,
she’s spent my very last dime

I’m paying a debt I never owed,
as I crawl further under underground
Keep hoping my fate’s been stowed,
and praying that I’ll be found

The cuts become infected
as she sits and laughs out loud.
My reasoning is rejected,
I’m severed from my crowd.

Her very existence gives me chills,
I dread each and every day.
Still searching for those magic pills
to make it all go away

Into my bones, her evil has slept
as she’s sliced me with her knife
For years now this darkness has crept,
slowly tearing apart my life

Every day they all applaud
the torture she’s put me through.
No one can see her true facade,
and there’s nothing that I can do.

Forever I’m stuck with this sickening doom
Yet my body won’t let me die
Alone, I sit in this empty room
With no more tears to cry.

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Is it just me or does anyone else have to live this way?

Comments

  • Arcadia Tempest
    Arcadia Tempestalmost 4 years ago

    Bitter can be neutralized ….we need to add unsweetened chocolate.
    This is a fact, just pure chocolate no fakes or false ideas.
    The real truth/cocoa to digest and get that bitterness taken down to a level that won’t give heartburn…
    Talking,,,talking is good, and what better way to talk than with out words me thinks..
    hugs..xxxx

  • This poems sums up the last 15 years of living with my stepdaughter…..she is the most disrespectful, vile, warped person I have ever known. I’ve raised her since she was 6 years old (her mother is a crack addict) she became emotionally abusive at 12 and has turned into a mean spirited, hateful 21 year old. Luckily my husband now (after many years of blindness to the situation) sees what she what she has done and has kicked her out of our house. I’m certain the drama has not ended, but I can’t take anymore. Yes…..talking/writing this out has helped some. Thanks for listening.

    – Solar Zorra

  • Arcadia Tempest
    Arcadia Tempestalmost 4 years ago

    better way to talk than with our words…. hell of a time for a typo!

  • Rikki Woods
    Rikki Woodsalmost 4 years ago

    I hope writing this out has helped to free her. :(

    You wrote this really well. Not only in sentiment, but in form. Big hugs xo xo

  • Yes, I’ve never mentioned her before even though she takes the top spot, even before my ex husband, of making me the most miserable in my lifetime. It does help to vent.

    – Solar Zorra

  • Ushna Sardar
    Ushna Sardaralmost 4 years ago

  • Thanks so much Ushna. And I hope you had a very happy Birthday recently, I logged on to FB a day late. :) Solar xoxox

    – Solar Zorra

  • Matt Penfold
    Matt Penfoldalmost 4 years ago

    Big hugs for you Sol Sol, A great poem, a bitter topic.

  • Thanks Matt Matt, it’s so personal but it feels good to get it out among my friends. I miss you, hope all is well with you. :) Solar

    – Solar Zorra

  • autumnwind
    autumnwindalmost 4 years ago

    you should not have to live this way. this breaks my heart for you. I have someone similar in my life and I wrote a poem about her a while back, but I finally got it together after well….many years. we eventually reach a point and do not take it anymore, no matter what anyone thinks.
    congrats on an awesome feature, and good luck. always here if you need a friend. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

  • Thanks so much Shar, no one should be held prisoner to such an awful situation. I know, I’ve lived it for years and it’s really taken it’s toll on me. I recently have been made aware that she was purposefully placed in my life for me to learn a valuable lesson, once I recover from the wounds maybe I’ll find out what it is. xoxooxoxo

    – Solar Zorra

  • comparable
    comparablealmost 4 years ago

    I’m sorry you feel like this ):
    Your words are simply amazing.

  • Thank you Morgan, I appreciate both your sweet comment and your caring way. :) Solar

    – Solar Zorra

  • bearwings
    bearwingsalmost 4 years ago

    that was a good write, I hope it helps, I want to say so much but I’ll keep it simple, you have to keep your own head above water before you can help others. do what you have too, I’m right behind you.

  • Ushna Sardar
    Ushna Sardaralmost 4 years ago

    Thanks for wishing birthday SZ! so sweet of you! :-) xo

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