ANOTHER MENTAL ESCAPE
A mental escape about taking chances and risks and about traps and illusions. It is about biting off more than you can chew, being buttered up, and being fed up. It is about being free no matter what the consequences. It is about trying to take joys, function and live life in a free fall. This is really about relationhships and falling in and out of love, and about trusting and not trusting. It is also about losing your foundations, that were based on relationships, thus the use of the word PARA – CHUTE. It is about going between one relationship and another with no security in between, and not ending up very well, or not making a good landing. It is about waiting for a rescue that never comes, and hearing the birds (symbolic of people) talking all around you. It is about being somewhere beautiful with no one to share it with you, because your relationships have ended, and it is about becoming very introverted, where your mind can escape in colors and writing, lilke a big blue beautiful lake surrounded by dense foliage.
ANOTHER MENTAL ESCAPE belongs to the following groups:
Twisted Tales and WMGanother mental escape…
I am skydiving in my mind WRITE now
the wind is forcefully shrieking by me, extremely forcefully
but it isn’t strong enough to keep my body from falling faster
and faster towards the earth, being pulled by gravity towards it destination, ground zero
I didn’t want to jump out of the plane, I got scared when I
looked out and saw the ground so very very very far down
below me
they told me to go out on the wing and then just to let go
once you are out there it really is impossible to get back
I went skydiving with my imaginary friend
he told me I was brave enough to do it, and silly me I listened
but it isn’t his fault, I really wanted to do it, to be free
free to fall, free fall, I was tired of people telling me I am a
coward I am not a coward at all, and now I am free to die,
to fall, to fall, free fall
when you are falling towards the earth you look funny
the force of the extremely strong wind pulls your facial
features up so that you are making some sort of strange grimace
even though you are powerless to do anything but go down,
you can still dance and do acrobatics in the air while you are
flying towards the earth and eventual death unless you have a working PARA – CHUTE
I love dancing in the air, ah the acrobatics….free people are
free to love, free to fall in love, free to love these things, just
like a kiss but the truth is they have taken my love for these
things away with their snide dirty disrespect, I try not to let
this be true but it is…St. Valentine’s Day chocolate and living, reaching out to other people, having friends
—-back to my escape
my body rushes to the earth, I see it rapidly approaching, growing grander and grander in my vision, like death grows closer and closer in my life
I have to wait until the right point in time to pull the PARA – CHUTE, and hopefully my friend packed it correct…I pull the chord and the PARA – CHUTE very very forcefully yanks me up into a slower yet still rapid approach toward the ground
I see that I am not going to make a good landing, I am landing in water, a lake
this isn’t a good thing for a PARA – CHUTIST because the gear and PARA – CHUTE can make you drown
I plunge into the water and it is freezing cold
I go down far, and I start to become afraid as I am sinking that I won’t be able to resurface
I eventually stop sinking into the depths and I start to pull myself back up very slowly…my lungs are screaming for air
I can see the surface of the water but it seems so very far away
I disconnected my PARA – CHUTE and it is floating in the water above me
when I break the water’s surface and gasp for air, the chute is hanging over my head
it is hard to swim because of the outfit and gear I am wearing and I feel tirelessly heavy in the water
I am also very exhausted from the huge plunge I just made toward the earth
my friend said he would pick me up in his motorboat
I have been swimming until the PARA – CHUTE is gone from hanging over the top of my head
I can see the lake, it is beautiful
the air is blue, the water is bluer, there is dense foliage all around the edges, in many pretty colors, I hear birds but no sound of any motor boat
JANE Á PARIS
Copyright ©2008 JANE Á PARIS
Peter Davidson
another very intense collection of words …
JaneAParis replied
Thank you so much Peter. Aaaaah, free fall. Smiles from Jane.
rrohn
I was hanging on every word, loving the entire journey,
JaneAParis replied
Thanks for reading rrohn, and loving the entire journey. Smiles from Jane.
Solar Zorra
That was an enjoyable trip, lots of layering, I wonder though, was the last line intended to be about a friends abandonment or just temproary fear of such?
JaneAParis replied
Oh it was definitely about being abandoned, especially when you need to be picked up. I don’t know how temporary you could consider the situation since another motorboat might not be along for a while. And then of course, you would have to be able to get its attention by flagging it down, and that might be really hard when you are so frigging tired and being weighted down by all of your gear. I think this person isn’t in a very good spot at the moment. They are very reliant on being saved and it might be a real &#@%% to swim to shore. I hope I answered your question. Thanks so much for reading and your time…Smiles from Jane