Email to Claire
From Mommy:
Have you read my red bubble page? Did you read my Letter To My Children? Did you read my last email to you, it is on my red bubble page too…I love you and Mitchell. I need health care and medicine. If they don’t provide medical care for me I will become more ill and die. You don’t deserve this and neither do I, or Mitchell too. I am suffering very much. Very much.
I miss you very much and Mitchell very much. It is very hard for me not to be bitter. I have been made to suffer greatly and I have been seperated from you and Mitchell for no good reason, just because we can. That is their excuse for all the bad things they do to me, it is always just because they can, because according to them I have no rights forever.
From Claire:
Hey mommy just wanted to tell you that me and Mitchell love you very much! I will send you a longer message later! bye!
-love claire
From Mommy:
Do you read what I write on red bubble in my journal, down at the bottom of the page, and My Letter to My Children, and other things I have written as well. I want you and Mitchell to read these things. I want you to know the truth about how I have and am being treated because I am being hurt, and when I am hurt you both are hurt. I love you very much, and Mitchell too. It is very wrong for your father to leave me like this…period. I am always thinking of you and I hope that school is going well for you, I love you so much, and Mitchy too. Love Always and Forever, Eternally and Unconditionally, Mommy.
From Claire:
I’m going to need to go on to red bubble soon so that I can read that. Right now it is too late. I always check my email right before I go to bed and dad is yelling at me to turn the computer off so I’ll talk to you later! I love you!
-claire
From Mommy:
I love you too Claire, and Mitchell too. You need to read what I have written. Your daddy, the police and a bunch of other people are keeping me in a cage. As long as I am kept in a cage I can be nothing for you. I need my health. I want you to know the truth because I love you. They are hurting me very bad because they have left an infection in my body and they deny me medical care, this is not right. They know exactly what they are doing, they are doing it very intentionally. Read what I have written on my red bubble page. I am very angry that I cannot be strong and healthy for you and Mitchell. I am very angry that I am not being allowed to be a person. I am very angry that I have been separated from you and therefore cannot truly love you or Mitchell. I am very angry that people will not stop harassing me, playing mind games, and abusing me. I am very angry that because I have to live in fear and sickness, not only does it cost me, but it cost you and Mitchell as well. I am angry for you as well as myself. I love you very much. I have no idea where the future is heading right now…all I know for certain is that I need my health and I need rights. Without these two things I can be nothing to you or Mitchell. I do not know where I will end up in order to finally find these things I need, not want. I can not truly love you or Mitchell if I am not free, and I am not free. I am being held in never-ending bondage (with my health, employment, and many other things), by people who lie, play games, and manipulate. These people have a choice, (whereas I do not, because I am being held in bondage), they can do the right thing and set me free and make good things happen or they can do what they always do, keep me in bondage and make me live in fear, forced to make decisions based on coercion, intimidation, and fear – So that they make bad things happen and bad things become the reality of the future.
ellamental
Is this real or fiction, if its real we need to know!! Things can be done to help.Please state fiction or non-fiction on written work if it is needed.
JaneAParis replied
It is very real, and I have been writing about it for a long time. It is in all of my writings and art. Read CAR-MEN and THE TRUTH – A LETTER TO MY CHILDREN. The police and other people do whatever they want to me for political reasons, they insist I do not have any rights forever, they have tread on me and abused me endlessly, and they make me live in misery with an intentional infection problem in my body. It has moved into my liver, I can feel it there. They constantly try to control me and put strings on things they have no right to, and they refuse to provide the things to me that I need to function in normal life, like my health, which they took in the first place. I have been made to sit for two years in this place while I have begged for health care and people have harrassed and abused me terribly. For five years before that I have been denied health care and fair and decent employment without duress and harrassment. The problems that they have created for me with thier mind games, lies, abuses, disrepect and torture are almost insurmountable and they have destroyed almost everything in my life. Relationships, credit, employment history, property, etc…They try to control where I go, what I believe, who I am with, etc…etc…I am not allowed to flow in society freely as others are. I have been waiting here for them to provide health care to me, and they have refused and played games over and over with no regard to who it hurts besides me like my children. They have threatened to throw me out in the street. I am ill and I am here because they caused it to happen. They (the police and others) have got me fired from my jobs, made me lose my apartments, denied me health care, given me tickets I did not deserve, and caused all sorts of other problems for me. Then they put me here and continued to deny me medical care for the infection in my body, and they continued to torture me and harrass me. My health is something that I need not want, and I am ill because they made me ill. They caused all of this. Now they do not want to do the right thing. Not only have they made me suffer terribly. They have tortured me, physically, emotionally, mentally, and sexually. They need to do the right thing and stop abusing and torturing me, for they have no ethical right to do what they do, they just do it, and lie about it. Nor do they have the right to keep me in endless slavery or insist that I have no rights forever, this is ridiculous and it victimizes not only me but my children as well. I write about it to show everybody what they are doing and the impact it has on me and the people I love, like my children.
ellamental
Any ideas on what steps can be taken to change this?? They are not going to change, or they WOULD HAVE.Have you gone to any womans centers??
JaneAParis replied
There is nothing I can do to change anything. I am treated the same wherever I go. This is a fact. It is also a fact that I need medical care and medicine. I am ill and in pain, and I have very little energy, I simply do not have the energy to go here or there, all I can do is write about it, and paint when I get a chance. I am not a starving artist, but I am a dying artist. Ill in my body and sick in my heart. I can not change the way people treat me or the way system treats me. —-Jane
ellamental
how about we put you on the deep within prayer circle, there are a talented bunch of healers out here??