AUTOPORTRAIT

AUTOPORTRAIT

OIL PAINTING
Image Copyright © 2008 JANE À PARIS

The original title was: AUTOPORTRAIT – DE MA PHOTOGRAPHIE DE PASSEPORT

I had to shorten it for the print to: AUTOPORTRAIT

I painted this self portrait from my passport photograph. In this piece of artwork (this picture of me), I was trying to convey that I was being put in the position of being just a picture (part of their psychological abuse, the act of keeping someone poweless). And that all I had for escape and survival was my passport, it has significance in more ways than one, (it also has sexual significance). She is surrounded by little cereals, the cereals that you need to make love work on nothing but a passport picture. This is what I looked like when I lived in Paris, France.

SPANISH POEM

my spanish poem…

spanish is a beautiful language
so why does it signify pain to me?
because of what people say to me
she is speaking in a foreign language
another words, I am speaking in other words
I am speaking what they don’t understand or don’t want to understand
the language of pain, the language of exclusion,
the language of escape, the language of forced love – salvation

maybe it is this way because in order to solve
your problem you must be exiled in a foreign country
that is part of the game -
and even then there probably is no solution to the problem
just an ongoing extension of the same dilemma

normally most people wanting to escape would go south I’m sure – to Mexico
but for some reason I ended up in France,
so my language of escape is french, maybe it can actually bring me escape
because at present I am feeling fluent spanish,
very very very very very very fluent, but it comes out in french because I want love
and I like Escargot! Yes car go—- God, I have been driven insane!!!

JANE À PARIS

Copyright ©2008 JANE À PARIS

Description -
Normally most people wanting to escape would go south I’m sure – to Mexico,
but for some reason I ended up in France… ? This is about seeking life, liberty, dreams, and love. This is about trying to escape pain, death, abuse, and hate. The Spanish language represents the pain in my mind, spirit, body, and heart. The French language represents the hope of rebirth, romance, love, and life. I am a conscientious objector and this is about political persecution, escape, exile, and the realization that there is no escape, from the State, even in a foreign country.

AUTOPORTRAIT belongs to the following groups:

Bubblettes, Paris, Passions, Self as Other, Self Portrait and Something To Say