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This SP was inspired by a mother/child sculpture gift i received from a friend. I felt a connection it, having never experienced a loving or nurturing bond with my mother.
My mother had a traumatic childhood and never found her way through, her development was arrested. I never got a sense that she loved herself or had healthy self-esteem. So how could i expect her to love me, when she never found a way to love herself?
It is not my mother i long for, we never connected. But from time-to-time, when the holidays and birthdays come round, i do long for a mother figure to come home to, a safe sanctuary of love and acceptance. In the absence of that love, i’ve learned to create a safe sanctuary within and have a few precious friends, with whom, i am blessed to share a loving and nurturing bond.
It is wonderful to have a source of unconditional love, we all crave it… but ultimately we need to already have that for ourselves, within ourselves, that we may give and receive love from a place of abundance.
Creating this portrait helped me work through my mother issues and properly grieve for something i always yearned for but never had…
On a positive note, my mother was a classy and elegant beauty. She taught meme manners and how to carry myself with grace. She kept a meticulously clean house and spent a lot of time doing crochet, and needlepoint, she was very good at it. She also made the best cakes and pies. She was a very talented with baking and desserts. Do to her own issues she didn’t like me but she still made sure i was clothed, fed and educated. She gave me life and i will be forever grateful for that.