Manic Mental Momentum is a self-portrait created by photographic artist, Jaeda DeWalt. Images photographed in black and white using a self-timer shutter release. Images were then seamed together in Adobe Photoshop. Hair, make-up and styling also created by Jaeda DeWalt.
ABOUT THIS IMAGE:
A fan was used to whip my hair around and create a sense of motion. I used extreme make-up, lighting and whispers of movement to create a sense of frenetic darkness. I have bipolar, adhd and ptsd.
I can only speak to my own experience, but… I feel like the gift is creativity, the price of admission, is a little bit of crazy and i am okay with that. ;) Accepting the up and down cycles, rather than working against them trying to be, “normal” is key.
The complicated mental machinery of my mind have become the nuts and bolts of my creative process, my art… BUT.. unlike my computer, my mind does not come with an optional shut-down mode, reboot, or stand-by. This means i am always too much and never enough in all that i am, all that i experience and all that i do. In the real world, it is a challenging way to exist, a tiring way to live. I have horrible bouts of insomnia due to my inability to shut down my mind. Creative work spins me into manic episodes.