The Sadness is a self-portrait taken from photographic artist, Jaeda DeWalt’s, Striped Emotions series and is a part of the DeWalt Gallery collection.
Self-portrait shot using a digital camera with a remote-controlled shutter release. Hair, styling, wardrobe and make-up also done by Jaeda DeWalt.
ABOUT THIS IMAGE
This is the very first image in my Striped Emotions series. I am still working on the other images in this series. I like challenging myself in new ways, with my self-portraits. And i thought it would be interesting to see if i could make it look like i was interacting with myself . . . in some way.
I shot this series against a green screen. The background was taken from a photo-shoot i did at an industrial site in Seattle, Washington. The watchman was kind of enough to let me onto the grounds and gave me a tour and all access pass with my camera.
I wanted to convey the extreme sadness i feel with manic depression. Over the years i have discovered that sadness is often anger, spread really thin, masquerading as melancholy. Anger is an emotion i have a very difficult time allowing myself to feel and express, i often repress it. As a child i was not allowed to express my feelings or my anger.
There is a detachment that comes with sadness, a disconnect from the self, from the world . . . BUT i am in a good place at the present moment and i am getting better at managing the emotional tidal waves that manic depression brings.