The comfort of her self-spun cocoon by Ina Mar

The comfort of her self-spun cocoon by 

Ink and musical partition on paper
This image emerged from a personal experience. I was feeling very vulnerable the other day, when I visited a friend whom I had not seen for about one year. It was just a harmless meeting, chatting over coffee and cookies at her home in company of her sons. It became a great horror for me when she started describing in great detail the last days of her mother’s life, who died a couple of months ago. The last meetings, the last words, the last breaths, the feelings of both, the regrets, the conclusions. A very honest, very sad story. Because I am a little more sensible than normal, the story affected me too much and the whole description started breaking me down into pieces. Which I wanted to prevent, by controlling not necessarily my feelings but rather their expression. It is not such a close friend, that is why I did not wish to show any kind of exaggerated feelings, but I was already extremely vulnerable and feeling the threat of a hot burst of sadness coming out, together with screaming and tears. I would have loved to fly away but instead I tried to think of happy moments or distract myself from the conversation or think of relaxing landscapes and musics. What really worked was imagining myself inside a big yellow tulip, protected by the smooth, closed petals of the flower and filled with new energy through the intense yellow colour. On the table, in front of me, there was a vase with yellow tulip-like flowers. I kept looking at them. This was the image I kept constructing in my mind in order to stay calm, while the lady was telling her story. After all we have the right to choose to whom we show our inner self and how often and for what reasons we let ourselves break down.
Ever since I have been haunted by this image of a woman protected inside this big yellow tulip, so I drew it today. I chose to symbolize the refused input with an upside-down musical partition.

This goes together with:

He listens throught her,
she plays through him
by Ina Mar
Bound to music, bound together,
in the freedom love brings
by Ina Mar

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  • adambogusz
    adamboguszover 3 years ago

    such a beautiful image Ina…even more beautiful for knowing the source of it.

  • alsounknownas
    alsounknownasover 3 years ago

    this is very touching, everything from the symbolism, to the details in the description.
    outstanding piece Ina!

  • Michele Meister
    Michele Meisterover 3 years ago

    wonderful image Ina, that might stay with you forever :) and Adam is right, knowing the source of it , makes it even stronger !!!

  • annacuypers
    annacuypersover 3 years ago

    Beautiful image, xoxo

  • donnamalone
    donnamaloneover 3 years ago

    Ina – so powerful and strong the vulnerability and your ability to describe it through your art

  • evon ski
    evon skiover 3 years ago

    such a wise a loving choice for both of youand your friend to make, given the circumstance. I applaud you. This is a lovely piece of healing work here. Love the covered mouth and the hair between the legs.

  • LisaMM
    LisaMMover 3 years ago

    Beautiful, sensitive and deeply touching piece of work from your heart Ina. The story behind it is so painful sad and confronting…….and i can understand you retreating into the tulip vision…….a beautiful and safe place to be…..I would have sought refuge also……thanks for sharing this intimate moment.

  • Shylie Edwards
    Shylie Edwardsover 3 years ago

    yes wonderful work!!! brilliant image!!

  • Anthea  Slade
    Anthea Sladeover 3 years ago

    Beautiful art and so sensitive and beautiful story. You expressed your vulnerability and your longing for self care in the face of this devastating story. Thank you for sharing Ina. I am deeply moved by the art and story. I will not forget either.

  • kenroome
    kenroomeover 3 years ago

    What you speak of are very difficult situations. How to respond when it is all too much. I love this series and how you are using music, as, to me, the field, the medium if you will, for the flow of our emotional connect to the world around us.

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