creativity!
Well Damn. if the cops in our town aren’t some creative motha-phluckers… (lol) Appearently me and my girlfriend were “humping” in the mall yesterday. we were sitting on the bench in front of Aero and A&F and she was holding me… where do they get humping out of that. (lol)
Ne-ways.
So more about yesterday. we picked out our engagement rings. They are hot i must say. when we finally do decide that the time is right (probably soon) i will take some pics of our hands together (wearing the rings of course) and upload them. And then we went and saw Prom Night. its a great movie. I dont like the happy ending, but thats cause i like GORY shyt. (lol) But over all it was GREAT… I got to spend the whole night in my baby’s arms. and i loved it!
She’s going to stay w/ me all (next) weekend. that junk will be HOT!
Gawd. i really think that i am Falling for her.
Okay! well i asked her. if she could make one promise to me and never break it. what would she promise… And she was like “i only get one promise” uhuh “I promise to never hurt you. to hold you, and love you. To never force you. But to just be here with you. To never leave.” i cried in her arms… but inside i wanted to scream… “baby, i promise to never let you down” (lol) Alright well she’s buzzing my fone. so i g2g!
iluall…
Lata!
red addiction
Awwww, love is grand!
i ♥ u... do u ... replied
yes it is aint it! but the fear of losing it makes it reality!... and then it SUCKS again! (lol)
Jaybe
Bless!! How damn sweet.
i ♥ u... do u ... replied
(lol) Okay! tnxu!
red addiction
I totally agree, I have written about my nightmares about being abandoned and not wanted. Its a horrifying feeling. It can stick with you for days.
i ♥ u... do u ... replied
for months… (lol) like after i lost DJ it took me FOREVER to get over it. and honestly i still care about it. and the love i feel for him may never change. but i gotta go on w/ life! and so now im w/ Kesha, and i really love her too. im just shutting her out all the time so i dont get too close and get hurt!
red addiction
Here is one of my pieces about the fear of losing my love.
Another Nightmare
I had a dream lastnight you left me for another woman,
I cried so much I couldn’t cry no more.
You lied to my children and stole my heart,
you now despise me and forever closed the door.
You don’t sleep in our bed anymore.
You no more give me kisses goodbye.
I feel all alone in this hungry world.
I thought you were only mine.
I changed for you,
sacrificed everything I once knew,
We ran off together to start a new life,
I wanted to only love you.
Nine years of so many changes,
from good to bad,
from bad to good,
We rode these waves,
we held on tight,
It’s another questionable day,
going into the night.
Goddamn it, I love you!!
Please!
Don’t ever run away from me!
This dream I had,
I’ve had before.
This thought of loss is killing me.
Pretend we are young,
Pretend we first met,
let’s make love,
and salvage what we have left.
i ♥ u... do u ... replied
OMG you are an amazing writer…
Jaybe
Ha – just read my comment and it might have looked sarcastic – wasn’t meant to. It IS so sweet. Made me smile.
i ♥ u... do u ... replied
(lol) its okay! i wasn’t sure how to take it, so i was uhh okay! (lol0
red addiction
I am familiar with getting hurt, but dont shut yourself in, it tortures your soul. As long as you are honest with yourself and not stand for any bullshit, you got it made. I hope everything works out for you. Bless you!
i ♥ u... do u ... replied
Thank you! You have the greatest advice in my time of need!
Jaybe
You gotta hold onto this girl my friend, she sounds like a diamond. Don’t ever hold back, just show her everything. I held back from fear of losing someone, I never let them in. Now, I still struggle but I try my hardest every day. Partners need to know….she might be feeling the same way as you….
i ♥ u... do u ... replied
im almost positive that she loves me like i love her. its just hard to understand it all! i never thought. that the person i would fall in love with would be a GIRL. my parents were always like Tay you’re BI, but you’ll fall for a guy! but now its like w/ her i am all vulnerable and im ready to face tomorrow. b/c i know she’ll be there. And its CRAZY! but i love her.
And if u dont hold urself back who will… Who will stop u from getting hurt other than ur own heart. who will fall apart if they lose the one they have fallen apart for….. You Heart keeps you safe…. it just gets tangled up sometimes…
Brandon Harris
Aw that’s so cute im jelous.lol. We’ll good luck. Where do u find these amazing girls.lol. We’ll ull have to show us the rings!!!