It was an odd day. A check that should have been here a month ago finally arrived. I could fix my phone, pay my Internet bill, pay rent, buy groceries. All things I had worried, the night before, I wouldn’t be able to do today. A birthday and a full moon added to this poet’s distress. Beauty does that to us. Raw unbridled beauty. Making it through another year still sane and not full of rage. The pull of celestial bodies regulating tides and some little understood corners of my body & soul.
I went to get coffee. Peets and their unusual varietals is my preferred. Ethiopian Super Natural today.
There you were. Strawberries & cremé anglais is what I thought. Curly blond wrought red and eyes that forbid me my articulate. Worry and strife washed over me. You smiled: Jasmine wafted through my mind. You walked by. Very near. Riparian breeze, soft burble of a brook and the emotional stillness I so treasure. You walked by again. Very near. Small smile ever so subtly reaching your eyes. Jasmine. The soft breathing between warm sun and gentle breeze.
I placed my order. Walked around waiting. Tried to avoid looking your way. Unsuccessfully. Asked to smell the Ethiopian. Avoiding a glance towards you. They gave me a sample. I slurped some, was overcome. Very intense flavor of blueberries. Avoiding the glance. My order was ready. Again, not a glance. Slurped some more. Stopped at the counter. Slurped the last. Threw the cup away. Wanting to say to you, wanting to ask…Knowing strife and stress I have enough. Love has never been even tempered with me. Gentle, soft, jasmine or athletic, heated of sandalwood & sage.
I left. Nary a word said. Nothing more than a few glances, a few small smiles. And I do not know if I wish to know you. I do know that your colors, your shape, your carriage are a sublime beauty to me. Yet, I do not want those torrid affairs. I do not want to worry “How can I escape?” I do not want that anxiety of the first six dates. I just want to know you as a sixteen year friend and a forty year lover. I know I can not have the latter without the former.
I do not know if I want to know you.
Posted to CraigsList \ Missed Connections though this is edited down from 528 words.
Edited – Add the first paragraph back in now that the word limit has been raised.
For ‘Sweet Emotion’ challenge in ‘Featured Writers’