My Endless Battle
Why am I always the victim?
Dangling and slighty grasping on to the shattered pieces of my life.
Is this whats destined for me or is it a combination of my choices.
My heart aches constantly, so much that life without pain seems unbearable.
Tearful moans and sleepless nights are a regular occurance.
The cold never leaves me and I can never get warm enough.
Disturbing scenarios and past situations haunt me.
I feel like i’m dying,not suddenly as I would prefer but slowly.
Wilting away.
My heart screams in anguish.
My mind is tortured by loves past and present.
Still like a fool I fight to live this horrible reality.
Gasping for air that I will never obtain,
while dreaming of hope.
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i can see that struggle, embedded in my mind, printed upon my head, branded on my thigh, carved into my emotions
we wouldn’t know love if we didn’t know hate```we wouldn’t have life if we didn’t have fate! So whatever it is that you have gone through, I see it but not as your present: as your inevitable past. God bless you girl!Ohhh yeah…the pain and frustration is so clear here. I could feel it all the way through.
These words really resonate with me “Gasping for air that I will never obtain,
while dreaming of hope” Geez..I feel ya there.
HUGGGS …you are such a beautiful soul. Keep on dreaming regardless.
its like im always fighting. fighting to breathe, find myself, be myself and to live. but fighting is the key word. I havent given up yet and don’t intend to.
– hiresholmes
Its good poetry. I can relate.