My mind and heart are at battle. I know better but my needs overwhelm me, I am weary. Joy is what I long for and I used to think it was attainable….now I’m not sure. If just for one instant I could feel enveloped in love and desire I would be so grateful. To just touch someone who feels as deeply as myself would be a blessing and a curse. It would ignite an uncontrollable fire that would engulf me…..I would never return. Lost forever in the love and warmth of this entity my suffering would end. I would free but am I ready for this release, can I willingly sacrifice my heart, mind, and soul. As I said before I know better but will I go with what I know or with what I want.
MissKristy
“To just touch someone who feels as deeply as myself would be a blessing and a curse” — I feel exactly the same.
In fact, I think we that feel so deeply are blessed and cursed at the same time in general.
I really don’t feel I can offer any advice because I battle with these emotions myself on a daily basis and I don’t really have any answers. But I want to say that we just have to stay true to ourselves …what we know intellectually doesn’t always help because we who feel so deeply ARE guided by our hearts. Whatever happens, I wish you all the best. Much love to you honey xox
hiresholmes:
thank you to feel this way is torture in itself……but i cant imagine life any other way. i am what i am and cant change that. my heart gets me in all types of trouble…..but i always find a way out……thanks for the strength.