Misery loves company, then never calls again.
Some days,
I smile and act like I think you care,
while wondering what it must feel like to breathe
in the arms of someone who really does.
Most of the time I can’t decide
if I’m depressed, or exhausted;
from all the nights I spend wondering
why we can be murdered
by our own hearts.
And Some days,
I deny that I’ve changed,
but the stranger in my mirror
keeps telling me to fuck off
when I stare too long,
and I think it’s starting to go to my head-
no wait, that’s where everything started.
Nothing is more sobering
than realizing you’re not really in control,
and some days it makes my dwindling confidence
feel completely incompetent.
Most of all,
I fear,
that I have a growing cynical distaste
toward feeling anything…
but pain.
Comments
Wow.
Nathan.
Brother.
This doesn’t just tug, it pulls out my heart.
love and respect
thank you for the feedback. life can be cruel sometimes, but everything gets better eventually
– Nathan Emery
you have hit the nail right on the head with this write. I relate to this at this point of my life. Brilliant piece Nathan
thank you so much Mark, i hope things get better for you
– Nathan Emery
I hate that you feel this way… but I do, too. This is a beautiful piece.
i hate this feeling, but love it at the same time. i hate that anyone could feel this way though. thank you very much
– Nathan Emery
Awesome one dude. I don’t know why it only dawned on me that we have the same name. Feel this write man, well done.
thanks very much man, and yeah it is interesting that we have the same name and we are both writers haha
– Nathan Emery
great, great write.
i think the “sigh” is in the release of control.
When just let things be…you can just sit back and watch in awe.
i do agree, but sometimes i hate feeling so helpless. thank you for reading
– Nathan Emery
it’s that whole overwhelming feeling of not knowing what the other person is thinking.
Yes, helpless, worst feeling in the world.
hey, here is something…even after 12 years of being in love…I still feel all the feeling that you wrote above but, the funny thing is we are madly, stupidly, uninhibitedly- still in love. I’ve never met anyone else in my life that makes me feel so angry yet so happy all in one moment. Love…it’s great and sucks all at the same time.
— mari
just keep writing…it’s help me alot. I read stuff that i wrote three, four years ago…and I see how much i’ve grown. Good Luck young Nathan.
that is beautiful that you have found something so true and pure. congratulations and i hope only the best for you. thank you for this comment, it reminds me to be positive :) and i will never stop writing. thank you again.
– Nathan Emery