Everything blurs together when you don't exist

I close my eyes, and sink
to what feels like the very bottom
as I sit in a chair in the corner
of this small dark cell
like so many other nights-
while feeling lonely,
so beautifully lonely.
The lyrics of a song spin like a web
repeatedly, repeatedly
around my head,
broadcasting over the static
of the speakers on the shelf
right next to me
while I look into space
and breathe in silence…
such painful silence.
Some days I don’t believe
that I’ve recovered at all
and that I’m still only
a single trigger away
from cringing at the thought
of what could come out of my head.
So I close my eyes and sink
like an anchor
in wet concrete
while lighting a cigarette;
a poisonous breath of sanity
rolled into paper
that makes me feel numb,
but so peacefully numb.
I see time slipping away
like my first love,
and I doubt some days
that anyone will even remember my name
because I don’t know who I am anyway
but I know I’m here
absently here.

Everything blurs together when you don't exist

Nathan Emery

Joined September 2009

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