someone please turn off the sound
of everything
because i’m so damn tired
of listening
eyes are heavy
and i’m worn down
so please love or hate me now-
but choose
because falling off
is scarier than jumping off.

the days are blurring together
into what feels like seconds
and i hate it.
god how i hate it.
everyone is leaving-
oh wait that’s me
and maybe i’m just waiting
for someone to take my hand
and pull me away
from the ledges i always get lost on.
but now i’m rotting
in ten story air.

i wish someone
would just tell me the god damn truth
cause i’m so sick
of second guessing the world
when all I want
is someone to love.
and it feels like tonight will be
the last time i will ever breathe
in your company
and i can’t do anything about it
until it’ll be too late,
cause i’ve always lived
a few minutes behind.

it’s this air i breathe;
i swear somedays it’s poison
and makes my stomach empty
like the words i say.
but i hope someday
someone will hold my hand
and give me an escape;
into their eyes and heart,
and maybe climb the walls
around mine.

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  • StaticLiving
    StaticLivingover 3 years ago

    Love this…

  • thank you so much

    – Nathan Emery

  • B-Money
    B-Moneyover 3 years ago

    Wow..I love this <3

  • thanks brittny :)

    – Nathan Emery

  • Lisa  Jewell
    Lisa Jewellover 3 years ago

    raw outpouring
    your ink is holding your hand, that I can see….

  • yes and it has a tight grip. thanks for reading

    – Nathan Emery

  • ThomasGun
    ThomasGunover 3 years ago

    interesting piece, it tells the reader much about the current mind-set of the writer, well written work man

  • thanks for the feedback. and yeah my life is turmoil about 24/7 it seems like. thanks again

    – Nathan Emery

  • Sybille Sterk
    Sybille Sterkover 3 years ago

    Beautiful writing and the yearning and hope against hope are all that’s left. xo

  • thank you so much for this

    – Nathan Emery

  • Sybille Sterk
    Sybille Sterkover 3 years ago

    Your writing has been featured – 14/08/2011:

    and see it here on the TBF blog

    Congratulations! :-)

  • wooh! thanks!

    – Nathan Emery

  • tori yule
    tori yuleover 3 years ago

    Excellent write. So much emotion here, wanting to fit in somehow, to be validated. I can relate to your words.
    ‘everyone is leaving-
    oh wait that’s me
    and maybe i’m just waiting
    for someone to take my hand’

  • thank you so much. and yes it is a painful realization, but one that is part of growing up

    – Nathan Emery

  • HamperRefuser
    HamperRefuserover 3 years ago

    Wow this is fabulous

  • thank you so much!

    – Nathan Emery

  • Maree Cardinale
    Maree Cardinaleover 3 years ago

    How very real and wonderful!

  • thank you for the read :)

    – Nathan Emery

  • Valentina D
    Valentina Dover 3 years ago

    exceptional personal awareness and highly beautiful and insightful writing….the last stanza gutwrenchingly brilliant

  • thank you truly for this.

    – Nathan Emery

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