Give me something,
anything to calm me down.
I hate this cause
I’m so fucking scared
and I’m tired of being angry.
It’s strange that I
feel like I’m dying
and I’m at the
intersection of roads
“I don’t give a fuck,”
and “I’m worthless”
ready to jump into traffic.
I want to turn back
but I can’t move.
You don’t know what I’ve seen.
You don’t know how this feels.
All I can say is that
the scars on my wrists
still hurt to this day;
they still feel like they’re bleeding.
If I can’t change your mind
then I don’t need to be here.
You’ll just be another memory,
running down my hand
and dripping through
the cracks and holes
in the floorboards.

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  • markhadafairday
    markhadafairdayalmost 4 years ago

    Nathan? is this fictional? it’s a good write but has a concern flag on it.

  • no it is not haha it is about my past. i am bipolar and a few years ago i was suicidal but that is over with (trust me it is over). this is a memory but thank you very much for caring.

    – Nathan Emery

  • Misunderstood24
    Misunderstood24almost 4 years ago

    I love you man.

  • :)thank you very much. Love you too.

    – Nathan Emery

  • wasy35
    wasy35almost 4 years ago

    Great depth in this writing, peace and love. You are a fascinating writer. I need to be calm as well.

  • thank you! I dont write to please, i write to vent.

    – Nathan Emery

  • Trenchtownrock
    Trenchtownrockalmost 4 years ago

    That is pure emotions bleeding on your words strong.

  • thank you very much brother. my words are stained red

    – Nathan Emery

  • Jet ...
    Jet ...almost 4 years ago

    OMG’osh Nathan! You are amazing in your writing! I felt this with every word written. I am so glad to hear that its over and that its a past feeling. hugs

  • thank you very much. sometimes the things that hurt most are the things that need to be said.

    – Nathan Emery

  • ivyharbour
    ivyharbouralmost 4 years ago

    I wish I would have known you better then, but seeing who you’ve grown into now is pretty fantastic. Thankyou for never giving up.

  • youre welcome :) thank you for being by my side

    – Nathan Emery

  • emster31
    emster31almost 4 years ago

    you are amazing.
    i’m so glad you stayed strong.
    this is such a powerful and strong piece. great work!

  • thank you so much. my friends are the ones that helped me stay strong

    – Nathan Emery

  • Slick Chic
    Slick Chicalmost 4 years ago

    very strong write.. stay strong and hang in there..

  • thank you very much. though i am hanging by a thread, i have hands to catch my falling.

    – Nathan Emery

  • IzzyGumbo
    IzzyGumboalmost 4 years ago

    strong writing Nathan and bravo to you for overcoming past and sharing such a personal time with us. I’m glad you’re here :)

  • thank you so much. you all are part of the reason im still here

    – Nathan Emery

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