My Lady's Estate

The ghoul inside my head,
sleeps in a mansion
in a king sized bed.
So I guess you could say
that she lives comfortably,
but my darling she sure
makes a mess of me.

She drums her fists and feet
upon my skull, singing,
demolish this street.
I apologize quiet;
please dear go back in.
I must wrangle that monster,
but she lives in my skin.

I do my best to suppress her win.

I’m so unknown.
Sometimes it hurts.
To be alone?
Brother, it’s not the worst.
But If I let her roam,
she’ll kill me thrice:
shoot me once in the throat,
choke, and freeze under ice.

My body is not a palace.
It’s a cliff edge shack
that’s built of malice,
and she’s in the den,
with a pen, and a book.
Probably adding to the list
of the ways that I’m shook.

She knows she’s the sharpest hook.
And she knows I’m the fool she took.

Sometimes at night I swear
I hear her singing but no one is there.
It’s nearly more than I can bear.

And I’ve tried to forget
with lust motion in sweat;
left a spiteful taste.
Sex without love was a waste.
Cause you weren’t erased,
or even close to being replaced.
It’s a terrible ache,
I can’t breathe when I break.
I’m a tiny stone sinking
and you’re the lake.
I’m just your mistake.
Let me go for my sake.
Let me go for my sake.
Let me go for my sake.
And leave me feeling awake.

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  • JRGarland
    JRGarland12 months ago

    Wow, this is such an incredible write, Nathan!! I love how you express your inner self with tones and expressions that everyone can relate to. Totally awesome!!

  • thank you so much for this comment! much appreciated

    – Nathan Emery

  • JaneRoberts
    JaneRoberts12 months ago

    I agree with JR, Nathan, a very human write, not everyone has the gift to express angst so lyrically.

  • wow, thank you for reading Jane

    – Nathan Emery

  • LoreLeft27
    LoreLeft2712 months ago

    amazing writing very powerful..

  • thank you

    – Nathan Emery

  • Alexandra Parapadakis
    Alexandra Para...10 months ago

    This is a courageous thing to post. It’s honest and with beautiful description. :-)

  • wow thank you for this comment.

    – Nathan Emery

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