Counting to infinity

I have a crooked shaped face.
I have a crooked jaw.
Sometimes the words that escape from under my tongue
are also just as lopsidedly flawed.

Some of the clicks and the pauses
are awkward, mistimed, or long.
I’ve perfected the expression
of my love, but I perfected it wrong.

So it goes as they say,
what a hackneyed phrase, so fuck that.
“So it goes” can go shovel it’s own grave;
make it big enough for me to fit too.
I probably touched your heart in the wrong place.
I wanted to though, so it’s okay.
Curious george died with my adolescent age
so go the fuck away,
and take your emotive guessing game.

I have a mad lazy eye.
It’s like I’m always looking away, even from myself.
I pick the scabs off my mind
and count them carefully one at a time,
I’m at infinity and fifty five,
believe me, this is unhealthy, I’ve realized.
I have my scars memorized.
It doesn’t take many hollow nights
to go fucking mental
over the same lines.
The same lines
The same lines
same lines
same lines
Don’t I look fine?

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  • Donna19
    Donna19over 1 year ago

    Congratulations! Really amazing metaphoric work Nathan. Flows as if downstream:)

  • thank you so much! it’s an honor

    – Nathan Emery

  • markhadafairday
    markhadafairdayover 1 year ago

    as always Nathan this is a wonderful piece of writing. I have many scabs as well. I perfer not to count them. :)

  • thank you, as always mark

    – Nathan Emery

  • woodie123
    woodie123over 1 year ago

    Your not the only one with the scars and scabs on their mind. As for the lopsided words, well I get them but by the time they get to my mouth I just hav`nt got a clue what they say.

  • haha yes everyone has scars of their own. thank you for the comment

    – Nathan Emery

  • Lyndy
    Lyndyover 1 year ago

    awesome write Nathan! def fave and congrats on your feature xxx

  • thank you so much!

    – Nathan Emery

  • Rocky Loder
    Rocky Loderover 1 year ago

    as good as it gets…great poetry…

  • thank you!

    – Nathan Emery

  • tori yule
    tori yuleover 1 year ago

    Fantastic write, Nathan. I bet many will relate to this!
    Congrats on your Vavoom feature!

  • thank you for reading tori

    – Nathan Emery

  • Petit Oiseau
    Petit Oiseauover 1 year ago

    wow….superb….your writing blows me away Nathan. I love the rawness of emotion expressed, so visual and full of such passion, it inspires me in such a way as to cause my own inner rages to rise to the surface……..your use of language is brilliant.

  • thank you so much for this comment, much appreciated

    – Nathan Emery

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