LONELINESS...................................

Here I am…I sit…now…..again…..so ALONE…...within expectations…although so overcrowded with reality…here I am….now….again….
Here I am…..now….again…
surrounded. bounded and HOUNDED by things/thoughts unknown…perhaps misunderstood, or not understood at all….just fuckin things!
things…
THINGS???!!!!!!
Here I am…..
within a space uncomfortable within a space so real and known, and accustomed to,
Here I am…
Who the FUCK am I?
why the Fuck am I?
tick tock…tick tock…
when is it , i know by whom I am surrounded? When will I know why? When will I know?
Here I am…
Here I am…
Here I am…
I just…...am….....
s t i l l d o n ….t .....k n o w …..... w h y?.................................................
is it
that
Here I
a m …..............................
Naked
Stripped of cultural garb…..
yet
dressed
in my own
garb
, my own design,
my
own,
.....
within
my own
loneliness
within
my own …. mind
Here I am…
Damn it
Here I am….....
go ahead….
paint this shit!
cuz
HERE
I
AM…...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Crowmanic

    Crowmanic

    Woooo… there young lady…. you havin’ another bad hair day…

  • helene ruiz replied

    lmao

  • Sally Omar

    Sally Omar

    OMG…please put this in THE SISTERHOOD…when don’t we have days like this? Awesome
    writing…a definite fav…now when I feel like this I can read your piece and know I am not alone!!
    xoxoxoxoxo

  • helene ruiz replied

    l o n e l i n e s s s s s s s s s s s s s s s s s s s s s …....within the known…......

  • Narcissus17

    Narcissus17

    interesting discourse structure ! :P And on another technical point; you’ve said “bounded,” which is a past-tense verb meaning to leap or move at great pace. You mean the present-tense bound.
    Wait, my know-it-all helpfullness extends still further. If you want to keep the rhyme then you could change your syntax:
    by unknown things/thoughts that surround, bound and HOUND me.

    :D

  • helene ruiz replied

    like that!...thnx

  • helene ruiz replied

    but…...who”s to say…..may be past tense….....hmmmmmmmmm

  • Anthea  Slade

    Anthea Slade

    Intense…raw…real and honest my frien Helene. I can truly relate to how you are feeling. Beautiful emotional writing…I feel every word. Lots of love Anthea xx

  • helene ruiz replied

    THNX ANTHEA

  • Crowmanic

    Crowmanic

    what is IMAO?

  • helene ruiz

    helene ruiz

    laughin my ass off

  • Druidstorm

    Druidstorm

    All around me the same yet my taste is drained
    This floor my path these walls hollow chains
    Inside I scream yet my silence never heard
    I am here take my pain!

    Helene your pain is felt friend! Beautiful words!!!...)o(

  • helene ruiz replied

    yes…...inside…..i scream
    my silence
    never’
    heard
    take this pain!

  • Paul (Quixote) Alleyne

    Paul (Quixote)...

    Very moody. I understand your thoughts Helene. Nice to see you so expressive in words.

  • helene ruiz replied

    YEA…WORDS AND ME….LOL….NOT VREY USUAL…I SUCK WHEN IT COMES TO VERBAL EXPRESSION…THNX FOR UNDERSTANDING

  • Cheryl McDonald
  • helene ruiz replied

    OH….
    TOO MANY OF US KNOW
    THATS THE SAD PART.
    THNX CHERYL

  • ambient-1

    ambient-1

    Dear Helene, my good friend once told me, “wherever you are, there you are.” I feel alone even when I’m at a party. So, I can so relate. Please know that you have friends here. Hugs

  • helene ruiz replied

    XXOXX

  • colorblind

    colorblind

    you should know that alone you may feel
    colorblind is always around ….just remove your veil…..
    love the poem
    expression well felt
    ...as humans we feel this emotion
    so you’re not alone….

  • helene ruiz replied

    awe….xxoxx

  • H M Bascom

    H M Bascom

    WOW.

  • Michelle BarlondSmith
  • RosaCobos

    RosaCobos

    Yes you are…..
    inmmersed in a solliloquy..of questions and uncomfortableness….
    sometimes our being feels like a cheat cotton t-shirt after being washed with warm water..it simple shrinks…and then the feelings, sensations and even the skin cannot hold that Essence that is pushing outwardly as if a nova….and all these questions and loneliness become from the narrow prespective that our soul cannot stand… we need place… space… and though we are social entities…. we need…. loneliness…. individuation… you are there…yes..
    you… are
    Rosa

  • helene ruiz replied

    xxooxx

  • linaji

    linaji


    GOD THIS ROCKS….

  • helene ruiz replied

    awe…ur such a sweetie
    xxooxx

  • erich biemer

    erich biemer

    it is good to howl at the moon….

  • helene ruiz replied

    :-)

  • Tron

    Tron

    Excellent expression…

  • Antek

    Antek

    Amazing Emotion.

  • Shoaib .

    Shoaib .

    yessss !!! F-in awesome !!!

  • AngelMay

    AngelMay

    As raymondoantonio says, it is what we do with our time that defines us….well defined Helene

  • helene ruiz replied

    thnx angel

  • annamora

    annamora

    Helene … I would like to say : we are here … but then I know that the computer screen is not exactly something what could replace actual ‘touch’ ... anyway – hugs :) hope you are painting now :)

  • helene ruiz replied

    smilez…how’d u know…xxooxx

  • Gili Orr

    Gili Orr

    Missed this earlier… so you are good with words, too;-) I really like it. I tend to give up on answers these days, though I came up with some in the past and may come up with others (or the same) some day. Can’t buy ready-made answers, somehow, not for long, anyway…. I like your raw honesty and simplicity of expression, no big words, no exeggerations, just as-is.

  • helene ruiz replied

    xxooxx

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