acrylic on canvas
If anyone has noticed, I am not producing as much work as usual…not by choice of course…..Here is my typical day since moving in with my mom and sister…(mom has glaucoma, sister has MS)…..

My Life…There’s no place like home…………….
I wake up about 5 am, thinking, ahhhh… a cup of coffee, quiet, thinking time, putting an agenda in order for the day, things I would like to accomplish, be it take care of bills, compose a painting, work on promos for an event I am planning, reply to emails, etc.. etc… etc……I tippy-toe around in order to brew that coffee, hoping, hoping, hoping…no one hears me yet…otherwise the demands and requests will begin….damn it! dropped the spoon, it’s all over now…HELENE!!!!! HELENE!!!! HELENE!!!!! (then in a passive aggressive tone)“When you get a chance, no rush, can you …….” 5 minutes or less later, phone rings, “Helene, when you get a chance … no rush…can you also…” few minutes pass, “Helene I also need…..but when you get a chance, no rush”… by the time an hour has passed, my “When you get a chance, no Rush” list is about as long as a 10 page book, my mind is racing, no room in my head to remember what I needed or planned on doing today, as I am now trying to remember who requested what, on my “when you get a chance, no rush list”. (mind you, if i do not get to the requests within a few minutes, i will then begin receiving passive aggressive “reminders” every few minutes, which really says, there is a rush, fuck when you get a chance…they are really saying “i want it now, but I want to sound polite about it in a passive aggressive manner”….so i think to myself, OK Helene, get the requests taken care of and maybe there will be some time left to do the things and to re-think my plans for the day….well….by the time I begin working on the “when you get a chance, no rush” list, more are spilling in by the minute, mind is so cluttered with everyone’s elses needs for their own agendas, I cannot even remember anymore what my own plans were…..then when as much is taken care of that is humanly possible,(which by the way, is never good enough) I am exhausted, in severe pain, can’t paint at this point which is my means of pain escape…cuz there is no “time” left, and my mind and body are so worn out….the day is over…..hmmmm… maybe i can take a pain pill…lay down, then get up when they are in bed? AM I OUTTA MY FREAKIN MIND?!!! No f*&$%ing way Helene! How dare you think so!!! phone rings…“are you still up Helene? If you can, when you get a chance”…………………………..

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home, depression, sad, isolation, pain

Helene Ruiz was born January 15, 1958 in New York City. She has exhibited and curated numerous shows and is the founder of The Urban Individualists, an international artists collective.

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  • umbra
    umbraabout 4 years ago

    holy fuck…….

  • lol…….u got that right..lolololol

    – helene ruiz

  • Valentina D
    Valentina Dabout 4 years ago

    wow…now thats a statement

  • lol….yea…i guess it is….

    – helene ruiz

  • umbra
    umbraabout 4 years ago

    guess i won’t bitch about my week now…….

  • lol…..u better not..lololol…wish i could sit and have a cup of coffee w/ya this morning! man, could we talk today…lololol

    – helene ruiz

  • Anna Shaw
    Anna Shawabout 4 years ago

    Oh darlng Helene – what an amazing and powerful image this is. I could cry.

  • awww … dont cry please…here is a hug OOOOXXX
    thnx anna, hope all is well

    – helene ruiz

  • Larry Butterworth
    Larry Butterworthabout 4 years ago

    great work Helene, it says it all

  • thnx larry

    – helene ruiz

  • Elisabeta Hermann
    Elisabeta Hermannabout 4 years ago

    WOW…Helene! Beautiful and very powerful work!
    I am speechless…unbelievable how much emotion is “trapped” in this piece…

  • thank u betty

    – helene ruiz

  • Renate  Dartois
    Renate Dartoisabout 4 years ago

    Wow dear Helene this is such an amazing and powerful statement keeping this image in your head might be a good reality check for all of us.

  • thnx so much renate

    – helene ruiz

  • eoconnor
    eoconnorabout 4 years ago

    pOWErFUL!!Helene well done,wellstated .needed !LIz

  • thank u!

    – helene ruiz

  • Rhinovangogh
    Rhinovangoghabout 4 years ago

    Powerful. I first thought it a commentary on the economy but then i saw the caged heart and wondered???? Love your work!

  • thnx rhino!

    – helene ruiz

  • ZazaLogik
    ZazaLogikabout 4 years ago

    A most wonderful image, HELENE.

  • hey stranger! Thanks so much!

    – helene ruiz

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