to look back, to look forward, to look now. nothing changes. nothing is new. i float on air, to and from, give and take, give and take. the same routine, i long for change, is this all there is? is this all there will be? how will it be, how will i go, how will i change, how will i grow, alone. i need this, i need it, what will i do without it, what can i do, more routine, more give and take, more boredom, more beer? to have dreams and hopes rested upon others, to know inside that their decision controls my life, crushing, i pray, i hope.
my life needs change, and its no longer mine to change. please.