depression
this is what happens whenever i get a bad, well, i guess you could say “fit” of depression,
i, just, write.
my mother taught me how, and so i did,
everyday, i’d sit with a book and read, or sit with the keyboard in hand and write.
i was five when i wrote my first book, mostly by myself.
i used a dictionary, a thesaurus and mother’s help, and just with that, i created what i thought was a masterpiece,
and now look at me! i could spend all day ditching school and write many stories, but it’s against the law for someone my age.
hope you like it!
depression belongs to the following groups:
Art Inspired by Dreams and Melbourne & Victoriait ruins me.
i look inside myself, and only see chaos.
why did it have to be me?
i glance down to the floor, pondering several questions at once.
my head spins, tears well up in my eyes, and i go to my room to clean it, give me something to do. but i’ve forgotten, for the umpteenth time today,
i’ve already done that.
i check the whole house for something i can do, but seeing as my parents are clean freaks, the place is spotless, organised and everything is already done.
i call up my friend’s number, only to find she’s not there.
i spy the computer, and an idea forms inside my head.
i pounce on it, wanting to get away from my miserable, self-inflicted prison that is my life.
and i start writing.
everything that pops into my head is on the screen, waiting for me to check it over.
i’m on there for hours on end, just because i’ve lured myself in,
given myself a distraction from the tears…
and my depression.
Matthew Dalton
I like it. What an opening line!
gynnirox replied
thanks! sorry i took so long to reply, but mum (adgray) wouldn’t get off the blimmin’ computer!
anyway, thanks!
gynni
hcroft
Yep thats why I took up photography – a distraction from the tears! Heartfelt words fully understood. Thank you.
gynnirox replied
you’re welcome! lol
Keiran Lusk
Beautifully written. Yes, I think many of us suffer from this dreaded thing called depression. At least some of us can see ways to distract ourselves in sad and murky times (like writing, creating, photographing) and that is a very good strategy for finding a way through. Good luck :-)
gynnirox replied
yeah, we all suffer at one stage or another, and distractions really help. i love my way of tuning out all the crap that goes on with a big family (I’m apparently one of about twelve children and there are several parents involved, aka BIG family!) i sit down at the computer listening to Linkin Park or Metallica
whicheverand write until i run out of ideas or i fall asleep on the keyboard. lol.amarica
Congratulations, you got featured on Bits and Pieces!!!!
gynnirox replied
COOL! awesome! thanks for the congrats and the info!
Soxy Fleming
you could home school…my Fleur does
gynnirox replied
sounds intriguing, but i think I’ll pass on that! thanks anyway!
Jack McCabe
The other side of pain, a coin, with a symbol of joy.
A celtic curse perhaps, centuries living under clouds and shadows.
Yet within us the most expressive and artistic of all earths peoples.
gynnirox replied
ok, usually i can understand these kins of things but you may have lost me here… no, wait, no you haven’t. all is well. thanks!
Tony Ryan
Think writing is a fantastic thing to do. I have had continual cycles of moods throughout my life. Many times these mood swings just seemed to have no meaning what so ever. Because I could find no meaning I just blamed my own weakness. However over the last few years I have started journal writing. Through this I have realised I have an ability to sense things in other people and my environment in general.
The more aware I have become to my ability to feel the more reason I have found to my moods. Whenever I feel really down or confused or emotional I slow myself down and search for the reason. It is natural to want to speed up and find activities to take you away from the confusion and depression. However in my belief we can never avoid our inner feelings. Far better to accept and embrace them and find reason. Once we do find the reason the depression is most often replaced by knowledge and freedom.
Best Wishes Tony.
gynnirox replied
right! thanks for another way of looking at things! (sorry, you just blew me straight out of the water!) would it help if I said I’m only thirteen, or did I just make you faint? sorry. lol!
Tony Ryan
Thats all cool . Thanks for getting back to me. Think it is great that you are writing so deeply at such a young age.
Sally Omar
Keep writing…you are fantastic…you make the reader feel what you are feeling!!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxox