I have often said that since I started my photography journey, I had my eyes opened for the first time to the natural beauty that is all around me here in Scotland. However, since my heart operation just over two and half years ago now, my eyes have been opened even more to myself together with all the experiences that come my way day-by-day.
Let me explain with a happening or two this week.
I was sitting in the Doctors surgery early this week. I was feeling unwell and a bit overwhelmed with my lot – basically thought I was starting to have more heart symptoms again.
As I sat there, I looked up and there was a wee boy smiling at me. It was the purest smile I think I’ve ever seen and with that he picked up his Mum’s hand then kissed it and smiled at her too. His Mum smiled back at him lovingly and you could see the joy in the wee man’s face.
You see, the wee boy was in a wheelchair and I could only assume he was living with Cerebral Palsy, or something akin. I could only imagine what this happy wee boy has gone through and also his family, but the joy on his face was something just adds to life itself.
How could I compare my life to his? There is a part of me that is thankful for the life that I have and experienced. The other part, full of guilt that I should feel this way when this wee man was so joyful. It’s a smile that will live with me for the rest of my life.
It was at this point, I remembered another and decided that I’d check on her when I got home. I don’t know her personally but I have followed her Blog for a while now and it never ceases to inspire and amaze me how much she stays so positive in her fight for life itself. Again the guilt, as being wrapped up in my own life and struggles, I’d forgotten about her. So as I typed in her Blog address, it was with trepidation as I wasn’t sure if she was still alive………I really hoped that she was still here. Relief was quite overwhelming and took me by surprise as she had recently posted a new entry.
Let me introduce Kirstie Tancock. She has suffered from Cystic Fibrosis with such amazing dignity and with such honesty to anyone who cared to read her words. It is an insight that no one……..I mean, no one……should ignore or not take wisdom from.
Her latest blog was almost too heart felt for me to read. This is woman who has gone through lung transplants, so many setbacks and such suffering but still feels the need to ask:
“Is it ok to want more?”
PLEASE read her Blog HERE and answer it for yourself.
No matter what, I can only hope to aspire to face such challenges in life (believe me, I don’t know if I’ll ever face anything like Kirstie’s) with such dignity and compassion for those around me. There is such a giving nature in her words even though it is her experience and feelings that are laid out for all see.
“Is it ok to want more?” Oh yes – no one deserves it more.
Just had to share and, maybe…………yet maybe………it will help someone else out there.