Happy Valley, Australia

Tracy Chaplin is an artist with a focus on illustration and is the creative mind behind the label ‘Gretel Girl’.

Domestic Doll

I was about 8 years old, standing at the kitchen sink in my Modbury North home. My exact words were “I want to be a house wife when I grow up”. Even as I type it now, laughter gurgles up inside me! The concept of washing, sewing, cleaning, cooking, darning & organising was extremely appealing to me then.

Domestic Goddess… I am not. I do my best, but there are always more interesting things that can be done. The facts are though…. when you have a family, children need meals & school uniforms & school lunches; husbands actually need all those things too! Laundry is such a constant task that often overwhelms me… actually the whole concept of housework is definitely not crumpets with honey.

It is no secret that for most of my life I have sought to earn my value, find my worth by the things I do. Only recently have I realised that I am of great worth just because I am me… not because I have a blog, not because of anything I do…. I have value just because I am me! It has been a freeing revelation. But prior to this, I have fought against the ‘value’ that I feel from being a housewife & mother…. the ‘house servant’… cleaning up the wee & poo from toilet training bottoms; the cooking; the dishes; the laundry; the constant tidying….. need I go on?

The other day I scrubbed a school uniform to erase some subtle stains. In the morning I presented the clean uniform to my daughter & pointed out its cleanliness. Uh-huh. A typical 6 year old response that didn’t dampen my joy. I had beautifully cleaned her uniform & I didn’t even have to! I enjoyed doing it for her.

There is something in me that wants to nurture… to make sure that my family leaves the house with clean clothes, with food & nutrition for the day… there is something in me that wants them to start each day knowing I love them & care for them. I want to provide the things they need for that day. That housekeeping-backpack is no longer weighing me down…. I do what I can, when I can. But the things I do – I do with love. I am grateful for what I have been given.

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