Trip To Disturbia

Sexual abuse at an early age-check.
Suicidal thoughts during adolescence-check.
Nightmares filled with stories of rejection-check.
Dictionary with disrespectful words-check.
Book with tales of my own adultery & seduction-check.
Skin scratches and old traces from my body violators-check
Memories of too many lovers-check.
Full bag of Sadness-check.
Lipstick with a bloody color-check.
Shoes to throw in case of anger issues-check.
Heavy snack from donuts filled with numbing cream-check.
Phonebook with disposable men on call-check.
Passport with depressing picture-check.

Plan to manage all that pain- nowhere to be found.

  • ~ Ademac

    ~ Ademac

    Powerful and emotive piece Lilith…......................the sun will shine again my friend.

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Thank you Barssel…it is a nice to hear a good word from a friend!

  • Suzanne German

    Suzanne German

    You know expression_as opposed to _depression is always a healthy start…..
    your writing style has a punctuality and immediacy to it that really brigs the message home and is a good read. many of us in his group and around the bubble share and support each other …i hope you enjoy expressing and in doing so have an opportunity to utilise your artistic talent (which is evident) and along the way find that you are not so alone….in what you are writing…

    thanks for sharing this with us

    suzanne

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Thanks Susanne!
    It is a honor for me to get your comment!
    I will definitely going to need the group’s help, especially because English is not my native language!

    Thank you…

  • colorblind

    colorblind

    i love this
    and how you put it as a checklist
    very nice
    nice read …..

  • GoddessLilith replied

    I know, it is a long list…

  • colorblind

    colorblind

    lol where you plan on going now …lol since you couldn’t find a destination
    i hope to a happy place with a cheerful checklist

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Working on it:))

  • Jarko

    Jarko

    “Plan to manage all that pain- nowhere to be found.”
    Please read “Barry Long: Only Fear Dies”, if you want to find it.
    http://www.barrylong.org/

  • Jarko

    Jarko

    http://www.barrylongbooks.com/ofd.htm

  • GoddessLilith replied

    I will definitely check the book!
    Thank you!

  • DragonFlyer

    DragonFlyer

    I have checked many of those boxes too – well – pretty much all of them. But there can be a plan – and it’s friends and people you can trust. Now. Who are not like those who inflicted all those violations then. Maybe you are taking the first steps to realising that plan in your writing here, and the responses you are getting from others who empathise with your pain… I think you are. And as you are brave enough to have written what you did and put it out here for others to see, I think your plan will form and grow in strength. I’m sure it will.

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Thank you for those words!

  • TheArtistMario

    TheArtistMario

    Place mi dusa… srtce moj.

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Helps to know Serbian:)))

  • MistressZombie

    MistressZombie

    Sweet Mother Mary. This speaks to me. Amazing and honest.

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Too honest if you ask me…

  • Cassey

    Cassey

    OMG, you are a female me. This is really moving.

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Sorry to hear you are caring the same pain…

  • Kirrill D'Kainn

    Kirrill D'Kainn

    To dear GoddessLilith.

    ... c’est la vie … cri de coeur … !

    I agree with the artist Mario – “my soul crys … my heart”

    Kirrill D’Kainn.

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Thank you for your empathy!

  • mikequigley

    mikequigley

    great piece and meaning mq

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Thank you Mike!

  • Matt Bottos

    Matt Bottos

    wow … I love your style of writing. Its raw & straight from the heart. I admire the courage you have to share such personal thoughts.

  • GoddessLilith replied

    I don’t know if it a courage, most probably is a need…

  • Matt Bottos

    Matt Bottos

    I guess it’s not courage if you find it easy to express yourself. Some have the need but not the courage…. or at the least find it very difficult.

  • charliethetramp

    charliethetramp

    sexual abuse at an early age
    forced to retreat into an emotional cage
    we do know each other

  • -Lilith-

    -Lilith-

    Gripping… relating… xx

  • GoddessLilith replied

    ...not only our names are the same I guess…

  • lupa

    lupa

    English may not be your native tongue but it certainly has not stopped you expressing yourself in such a powerful way! Some of us know this story intimately….this is powerful, honest….I love your writing here

  • GoddessLilith replied

    Unfortunately, I really didn’t struglle writing this peace…it was coming with such a power directly from my Soul.

  • -Lilith-

    -Lilith-

    Oh no, you’re right… It must be much more! ;-)

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