Shattered Layers by Virginia N. Fred
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When I became sick with Fibromyalgia, I really didn’t know what to think, I spent years without a diagnosis, and to finally have a name to what this horrible pain that I endure every moment of my life is. It was supposed to be an “aha” moment, but it wasn’t, I suffer whether I am asleep or awake, I have learned to deal with a variety of emotions that have come along with this disease. I still do, I have woken up at times wondering “WHY?”. And I will say, that the thoughts that have crossed my mind at times where not pleasant at all.
Its hard to explain how it feels to have this pain, when you see me and I am smiling and looking healthy, aside from the weight gain, so I get “well walk, do some exercise”, well what is not understood is that the medicines that I take up to 7 times a day are what is causing the weight gain.
I don’t look for anyone’s pity, nor do I want it, what I want is understanding, if I say, “I cant” it literally means I cant, I never make promise to go anywhere, because I do not know how I will feel on that day, so I just say, “I wont promise, but I’ll try”.
I am told that alot of what can help me is to learn to deal with the abuse I went through as a child, its hard, its been held in for so long, I rarely leave my house, cause I am not comfortable with the outside world, I try to, there’s just so much “noise” out there, that I cant filter anymore.
I know I am not the only person who suffers from this disease, and I am probably not writing this the way I want to, I just wanted to express some of whats on my mind right now
In this piece, each color signifies emotion and pain, for each of us the colors mean different things then what I see them to be.
I put alot into my pieces and love sharing them with you all, it takes me away, even if its for a moment, so I hope that you enjoy them as much as I do…

Following Apophysis: Foci Tutorialby ~Juggalo5
Lines and colors enhanced using PS CS2 , Redfield Plugin, Fractalius Filter

Virginia is a self taught Photographer and Fractal Artist. She has Fibromyalgia and PTSD, and uses her work as a form of release.
“I love the idea of creating art and knowing that it comes from me and no-one else.”

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Comments

  • Bunny Clarke
    Bunny Clarkeabout 2 years ago

    Beautiful design and creation.

  • Thank you so much Bunny

    – Virginia N. Fred

  • barrowda
    barrowdaabout 2 years ago

    Very poignant sentiments, Gina – thank you so much for sharing, and I’m glad that your art can help you “get away” from time to time. This work, your description, and your perseverance through the pain of fibromyalgia and the effects of the meds, are very moving. Congratulations on a great example that once again proves that fractal images can absolutely be considered ART in every sense of the word. :o)))

  • David, thank you, I dont understand how our fractal images are not considered art, I think they are beautiful artwork and alot goes into our pieces, this piece took 51 hours to render, I was so happy when it was done, again thank you so very much for taking a look :-)

    – Virginia N. Fred

  • © Kira Bodensted
    © Kira Bodenstedabout 2 years ago

    01-29-13 Congratulations!
    Your outstanding work has been featured in ART UNIVERSE

  • Thank you so much Kira

    – Virginia N. Fred

  • viennablue
    viennablueabout 2 years ago

    fine work Gina, your words add an extra layer of meaning to this piece, thank you for sharing with us.
    congratulations on the feature, well deserved for this power piece of artwork :-)

  • Thanks so very much for stopping in Jacqui

    – Virginia N. Fred

  • viennablue
    viennablueabout 2 years ago

    sorry that should read ‘powerful piece’

  • lol I understood

    – Virginia N. Fred

  • Stormey
    Stormeyabout 2 years ago

    Beautiful work Gina. Yes, your words do bring much more meaning to this wonderful art piece. I can understand what you are going through; although I personally don’t experience physical pain, my husband has spinal stenosis, degenerative disc disease and 3 bulging disc and it is a chore for him to even get out of bed some days. I bare the emotional pain of his suffering everyday! My hats off to you for your efforts and beautiful work you do.
    Congratulations on your well deserved feature! God Bless.

  • My heart and prayers go out to you Sandy, care givers also suffer when taking care of our loved ones, I cant say the same for my hubby, he just thinks I complain to much :( thank you so much for stopping in and taking the time to read what I wrote <3

    – Virginia N. Fred

  • Renate  Dartois
    Renate Dartoisabout 2 years ago

    Beautiful creation.

  • Thank you Renate

    – Virginia N. Fred

  • Kanages Ramesh
    Kanages Rameshabout 2 years ago
  • wow thanks for the honor

    – Virginia N. Fred

  • James Brotherton
    James Brothertonabout 2 years ago

    A beautiful piece that perfectly portrays your enduring pain. Thanks for sharing your story and feelings and I will pray for you!

  • Thank you for your prayers James, I may be slow in posting my works to the group, but I want you to know I do work on all the tutorials, thak you for stopping in :-)

    – Virginia N. Fred

  • C J Lewis
    C J Lewisabout 2 years ago

    Congratulations on your DAP feature :) katekreations, blamo & CJ

  • Thank you so much for the feature, I am honored

    – Virginia N. Fred

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