I hear the tiny droplets slink down into the metal drain. They collide and fall from the shower head with a steady pressure against the back of my skull. The water rolls in perfect warmth down the middle of my spine.
I’m clean. I just don’t want to get out though.
I’m clean, alright. I just don’t feel like moving.
The clouded steam rises above me like a tired ghost. The opaque glass makes the bathroom outside look like a blur of blending, misshapen colors; it’s almost sickening.
Why do I feel like this today?
I turn the knob and wrap myself up in a towel. Little drops of warm water drip from the ends of my hair and land softly on my collarbones. I’m covered in little goosebumps and looking pale as ever.
I guess it’s hard to understand why some days people wake up and just feel sad for no reason at all. Maybe something in our sleep speaks to us in our dreams and makes us feel worried in the morning even when there’s nothing to worry about. Maybe something speaks to our bodies to feel tired, even when you’ve had enough sleep. Maybe something speaks to our minds to feel melancholy, even when there’s no reason to feel upset.
I’m just sad today.
And I don’t know why.
I’m usually always really happy. But some days I just feel sad for no reason at all. I hope I’m not the only one who has those sort of days sometimes.