beasts for the dead and burdened

I love you more, now that you’ve gone.

It’s peaceful and although most people believe there’s no way you could ever come back, you do.

Don’t you know how to say hello?

I’ve been seeing you in different places lately. Sliding down the ridge of a strong nose. In the dark shadows under eyes. In his slamming door. Falling from the flicked head of a laughing man. And within the front quarter panel of a 1967 HR Holden Sedan.

You remind me of him, though you’re not electric. Maybe one night you will be.

It was after dark once, when I was most afraid, that I felt him arrive. There was no denying the animal beneath.

You were brave enough to show yourself and although I curled myself into an enclosure, parts of you seeped into me.

You are a beautiful ghost.

I wonder if you’ve crossed paths.

Have you met him?

Wherever you are.

Tell him I’m trying.

Let him take you for a ride.

And did he hold you stern and make you promise never to hurt me?


And did he fold you into an envelope of all that once was and send you away?


Like an air parcel for the starving; I can’t catch you.

You’re too heavy.

You and that animal beneath.

You’re almost too much.

All I can do is admire you and throw you thoughts for your silent heart.

And whilst you drag that beast around, hoping it will become lighter, I once again climb down from the wings of that thing that I have tamed. And I make a wish.

We’re all riding something.

Mine is a dominant maladapted monster; winged and ill-favoured. Resplendent and obscure.

It lets me escape and brings me home again.

The trick has been to learn when to feed it.

And when to let it starve.

© ryan

Currently unavailable for purchase

beasts for the dead and burdened by 


pj ryan, dinosaur, ghosts

Bitey, metaphorical and ambiguous little writes.

View Full Profile


  • Rhinovangogh
    Rhinovangoghabout 3 years ago

    Nice to have you again…very nice…

  • thank you, nice to be able to be here :)

    – PJ Ryan

  • Loui  Jover
    Loui Joverabout 3 years ago

    beautiful words written in the blood of the heart

  • thanks loui x

    – PJ Ryan

  • BiographyofRed8
    BiographyofRed8about 3 years ago

    such beautiful music your poetry sings… and such an experience to read it, thank you for the rich variety of words you have sprinkled out here on the page

  • i’m pleased you are able to hear and feel it. thanks red x

    – PJ Ryan

  • CJCayea
    CJCayeaabout 3 years ago

    your writing style really is an experience. isnt that what its all about? :)

  • much appreciated CJ thank you :)

    – PJ Ryan

  • PintaPinta
    PintaPintaabout 3 years ago

    Oh. Jesus. Nixie.
    Perfect rhythm, pitch and tone. And, of course, your signature reassurance of all the messy monstrous beautiful things that makes us human.
    I have missed reading you, my girl. My goodness, I have.

  • Hello my beautiful hollerama. Love, miss, feel you no matter what. Chat soon beautiful thank you x

    – PJ Ryan

  • KathO
    KathOabout 3 years ago

    Good to see you back! Love your writing style. The last three lines are just perfect x

  • Thank you Kath x

    – PJ Ryan

  • Valentina D
    Valentina Dalmost 3 years ago

    Amazing …the last three lines gut-wrenchingly brilliant .Thank you for the empathy I have felt in reading this

  • thank you for reading and commenting .. also for the faves x

    – PJ Ryan

desktop tablet-landscape content-width tablet-portrait workstream-4-across phone-landscape phone-portrait