You weren’t much to me
except a consummation
of almost every thought
in most of my days
back then
you were
terribly unkind
at times
just what I wanted
when I never thought I was worth much more.
You had a forehead like mine
large and full of dreams
but mine was dented
from banging it against brick walls
like you.
You were just another brick in my wall of life.
I remember when
eyes across a room
were enough to draw these souls together
igniting the fire in the pit
I walked across those hot coals for you
and you never cared for the burnt parts of me.
I’d sit and caress my own feet
whilst you would skip away on yours
you always were selfish like that
impressing me to no end.
When you drew pictures for me on the wall
the next day
with the ash
still warm enough to spread well
I sat and watched you
captivate me.
Whilst you were busy
I painted my cheek bones with lines
black ash
a third eye
and a window on my chest.
I looked out at my new view
crawled along the trenches
through the holes of me;
I escaped from you
for good
for better
for something;
Over the wall and away.
© ryan
Marny Barnes, 2 months ago
this resonates for me. Words I could never have placed together so properly, feeds my desire to explain how it feels. Sounds exactly like…..memories.
LisaG, 2 months ago
I felt this right through my being, it opened up a memory I have been hoping to close for a very long time. Now I’m thinking. I should not forget.
Powerfully written, Nicole…..
mtda, 2 months ago
Wow, you never fail to amaze and inspire me. This is exceptional.
girlinthestars, 2 months ago
so amazing. I’m in awe…
linaji, 2 months ago
Good Lord.. You are my new Queen of Soul and Truth and chills up and down my spine.. wow I just adore your work and I suppose if I met you… I would not have a problem
present tense:I walked across those hot coals for you!!
This is one of the most fav pieces I have read in a long ass time!!
flower68, 2 months ago
I felt every word of it,because I’ve felt every word of it.Touched girlfriend.Deeply.
natapee, 2 months ago
you’ve written my thoughts in a way that i could never. thank you so much. x
vanesse, 2 months ago
Bravo darling… BRAVO!!! :0)
Stack, 2 months ago
Wow, just wow. That’s all I got. xo
Yasemin Sumner, 2 months ago
but mine was dented
from banging it against brick walls
sometimes there’s so much wincey truth in your words it makes me squeeze my eyes tightly and sigh.
aglaia b, 2 months ago
god damn woman
HELLFIRE
man you got groupies!
love ya xox
MrPJ, 2 months ago
Beautiful, self sacrificing devotion followed by realization and escape.
CDrewHughes, 2 months ago
I think its beautiful how women love – its even better when that love is returned…..... I’ve had my heart broken many times over, but I wouldn’t change any of it because each time it taught me more about myself =)
Its a beautiful, heartfelt piece xxxx
ladyb, 2 months ago
This made me feel soft inside. Thank you. xo
TeriLee, 2 months ago
Serious goosebumps….this was is fantastic…..wow!!!
deliriousgirl, 2 months ago
I walked across those hot coals for you
and you never cared for the burnt parts of me.
OK, just one thing – where is the bastard, I’ll go snap him in two like a twig for you!!!!
Shanina Conway, 2 months ago
You never fail to hit home…..and hard,,memories, thank heavens for the escape hatch;)
Ally O'Brien, about 1 month ago
This is fantastic. There’s so much behind this poem, it’s truly intriguing.
markgb, 11 days ago
Amazing writing nicole.
Nicole Ryan in reply to markgb’s comment, 11 days ago
thanx for reading mark