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Wow Fa ! So well put , I think this captures the feelings that many artists have in their lives. The life and mindset of an artist tends to be that of some solitude , as many in our lives don’t / can’t understand us and how/what we feel and probably never will, at least that’s been my experience in life , art may not be my livelihood , but it is my life .
your family don’t understand you too? i thought most artists always have family support and encouragements? those times that i read about artist talking about their success, it’s always about having their family support. Could it just be… for publicity sake? heheheh… XD
lol I dunno about that Fa, I know mine really doesn’t .. .but then again … my style has atendency to be morbidly twisted ( my mother always thought it was a hobby I’d grow out of ) don’t get me wrong , she’ll occassionally ask how " my little art thing " is going , and for her birthday & mother’s day I gave her cards that I had done myself and ordered through Zaz, lol and she didn’t even recognize my characters as mine ( even though I’ve give her the limks to my sites a million times ) oh well …. I will say that she never puts it down , just never encourages either …lol though …. when I gave her the link for this site …. she loved Karin’s work ! ( mine was only “nice” ) but its all good … my daughter is very supportive of me . Like I said , sometimes its a mindset thing , and artists are a different breed :)
hehehe.. cute~ Glad to hear that although they don’t support, they don’t object or discourage too. i was hoping to get that from home. hehehe.. artists are a different breed.. they should be a tee with that slogan.. hehehe.. XD
Oh Fa I just want to wrap you and your family up and bring you all over here away from the stupid attitudes and mindsets of people that would ostracise and leer, and outcast. Or maybe just you lol. It’s really hard to open peoples minds that are so closed. My parents are passed on now but never were supportive of my art, and I still struggle to believe in myself at times. You are so determined and talented I have faith in you to succeed despite what is going on around you. Courage my friend, stand up for what you believe in don’t let them pull you down.
Hi Cate! so sorry for the late response.. it’s like.. it’s overwhelming? the amount of care and concern i get from you guys.. 1 of my fren, ganz, even got me my favorite artist’s prints today.. i think am not used to getting so much in one day.. i don’t know how to reply or react.. i felt like.. dumbfounded? i dunno hehe.. Thank you so so much, Cate!! Thank you for the faith!! Hugs!!!
Don’t let others grind you down my dear friend – be strong and true to yourself and your beautiful dreams. People that don’t understand can be cruel when someone decides to be different and walk away from the crowd to do their own thing – I guess when that person becomes successful they forget so easily the sneers and discouragement they showed before. It takes a great deal of strength to be the person you wish to be sometimes – you know how much you are loved by your friends here on RB – one day you will look back and remember those that really supported you!!!Take care and follow your heart – mega hugs!!! xxx
Hi Angela!! Thank you so much, dear! so sorry this reply came late.. if you read my reply to Cate above.. i think i got a little shocked by the love coming my way.. hehehe… m not used to it.. n_n" Thank you so much, Angela! will never forget you~ =D Hugsss! X)
”七転八起”Paulo Coelho wrote in the introduction of his book -“When we first begin fighting for our dream, we have no experience and make many mistakes. The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.”Get up with your own feet, fa!!
Glompz!!! X) Domo arigatou gozaimasu!! honto!! thank you, Midori, for reminding me of this saying.. i will stay strong. i will get up. i won’t give up without a fight!! =D
This is beautifully put, wonderful poetry….
i think the greatest strength comes through love and acceptance by others outside of your family. This helps you to see what a beautiful girl you truly are…there is nothing you could do to make anyone despise or dislike you like this….nothing!! The real reason people are mean to you like this, is because they despise themselves…. You have taught me that truth..
You see, you are beautiful.. You are kind…. You are loving….You really shine… You shine so brightly that I am drawn so close to you…. always worried i will offend you!!! and lose your friendship….and what do you tell me…that i am like chocolate!! that you could not get sick of me!! ha!! i love that quote!!
If I am like chocolate to you, then you are like Caramello Koalas to me!!!! One cannot get sick of such a light and such a joy in one’s life…you are like a breath of fresh air, with your honesty and integrity and great insight fa.
The one thing that is a great truth that I’ve learned is that the only reason people dislike or hate you, or despise you…or seem to be ashamed of you….is because of their own insecurities…and as much as we would like them to change. … .they don’t… they won’t…. no amount of pleading works. It is such a shame, so heartbreaking..i know….
Does it help to know that you yourself are not blemished in any way….that you are the fruit from a tree that may have had a virus in it which thwarted it’s growth and caused it to shrivel….but you being the fruit from this tree…have nothing wrong with you whatsoever…it is NOT genetic….you ARE not the same. I know this because i am not the same as my own parents…I have a weakness called “sensitivity”, just as you do…but weaknesses are also strengths fa. Perhaps “sensitivity” is the result of the pain that has been inflicted upon you, which serves to make you a better artist.
Without this weakness called “sensitivity” none of us could do our art. You of all people, especially…..because Tim could not exist without the “sensitivity” and “realisation” that comes from the “pain” inflicted upon you…. Evil does not always beget evil fa…..in your case it begets goodness and kindness, love and care, determination and fortitude, a winning spirit…..
Your family who do not support you, have in some ways been responsible for the development of your art through the crises of pain they have caused you. Let’s think upon it for a moment…i believe a lot of your art is “born from pain” and “born from longing”….remove these two criteria, and what is left…..perhaps you would do just “happy art”, but maybe it wouldn’t outreach and touch so many people and help them through their pain?
I would like to say something to you which i know is a big ask, but i wonder if there is a way that you could work to help others with depression…you would be a fantastic volunteer at a clinic, because you just can break the ice so well with things like TIM…you could wear your TIM tee…and bring your TIM Philosophy to others, and i bet it would lighten their load and make them laugh….you could be a huge and important, much loved and adored asset to other folks suffering from the same affliction. I know from my perspective that suffering from depression is lonely…to hear other people like yourself being so honest about what they go through, is like it lifts a huge load from me, I can take a deep breath and feel not so lonely, and also that someone else understands.
I would love to see TIM in therapy helping other people who have TIMs in them also!!!!
What do you think fa.???
hugs and love from your greatest fan in the worldKarin xoxoxo glompsz also!!!!
if i am Caramello Koalas, i will be like this shaking my butt!!! hehehehe.. =Dthis is considered a poem? i was just rambling.. OO"
sensitive.. yea, i was told that i need to be handled sensitively.. though i’d rather just say all of us artists just have high EQ. hehehe.. XD
yea.. it’s true.. my art.. especially Tim, is born from my feelings.. pain, loneliness, disappointment, stress, madness.. which is why i always find it hard to accept people saying that i am beautiful or have a beautiful heart or soul. my mind and heart, while they can be very nice and friendly, there are times when they’re so ugly, i’m amazed i’m still roaming free in the society.. i always find my heart and mind ugly. dark, cruel and nasty.. heartless as they would have called me.
yea.. it’s true.. my art.. especially Tim, is born from my feelings.. pain, loneliness, disappointment, stress, madness.. which is why i always find it hard to accept people saying that i am beautiful or have a beautiful heart or soul. my mind and heart, while they can be very nice and friendly, there are times when they’re so ugly, i’m amazed i’m still roaming free in the society.. i always find my heart and mind ugly. dark, cruel and nasty.. heartless as they would have called me.happy art.. beautiful people do happy art.. happy and lively art.. art that reflects how beautiful their soul is.. i wanna do happy art.. but i end up doing dark or twisted designs.. i thought many would hate Tim or find him disturbing.. but somehow there’s people who still love him for it.. i find it weird, just like people loving me, i find it weird.. lolz.. i seriously need to learn to accept that i think.
yea.. it’s true.. my art.. especially Tim, is born from my feelings.. pain, loneliness, disappointment, stress, madness.. which is why i always find it hard to accept people saying that i am beautiful or have a beautiful heart or soul. my mind and heart, while they can be very nice and friendly, there are times when they’re so ugly, i’m amazed i’m still roaming free in the society.. i always find my heart and mind ugly. dark, cruel and nasty.. heartless as they would have called me.happy art.. beautiful people do happy art.. happy and lively art.. art that reflects how beautiful their soul is.. i wanna do happy art.. but i end up doing dark or twisted designs.. i thought many would hate Tim or find him disturbing.. but somehow there’s people who still love him for it.. i find it weird, just like people loving me, i find it weird.. lolz.. i seriously need to learn to accept that i think.Tim Philosophy.. Tim, helping others? actually i remember someone once mentioned he wanna start a group here on RB for members with depression or any form of mental health problem.. didn’t see the group formed though.. am not confident of creating one. like i said, i often worry if i’d offend anyone in similar shoes everytime i upload a new piece of Tim.. but i don’t mind helping anyone who wants to talk to me about their problem. i’m used to it, and i like voicing my opinions to anyone interested.. i don’t know how to go about this.. n_n"
Your writing is so deep and moving fa… I hope all turns out well in the end. It may not necessarily be easier from this point onwards, but no matter what you must not lose yourself. I have been there (not with my family though, thankfully). Though I say these things, admittedly I do let myself fall into depression at times – but you can always expect that to happen at the depressing moment.
I read through Karin’s comment; ironic that I see it today and she talks about TIM, because today I was telling her about the potential I see in TIM you see fa, we believe in you. You never know what to expect, but just because SOMEONE isn’t supporting you, does not mean it’s time to give up what it is you want to do. Your relationship with your family vs. people here on RB reminds me of my relationship with my university professors vs. my internship supervisors. I once had a bad mark on a project which I thought I deserved much better on, and the prof didn’t give me a reasonable explanation as to why that happened. I was even trying to be understanding by asking for the mark-breakdown to learn where I went wrong, but when I saw it, the prof simply took most of the marks off of the first criteria category; which I thought was the strongest in my project. I e-mailed the prof back but he just decided to ignore me from that point on (avoiding the problem). I was pissed off, but I still put that project in my portfolio, and my job interviewers loved it.
You are a great friend fa, I like you better than several people I’ve known longer than you. Why you have come to know me well enough that you were the only one who noticed me in Midori’s manga (even I didn’t notice myself! lol) Take care fa. Hugs, glompz
P.S. looking aside from what you are dealing with, this really is a beautifully inspiring piece of writing! I feel like doing some writings now; but there are still atleast 4 other origamis, 2 paintings, 3 drawings, some graphic works and a video I want to do before leaving for Rome :P. (Though I know I won’t be able to do all being as busy as I am; have to clean the awfully untidy house before relatives arrive and get ready for school and find a home…)
Thank you so much, Mui-Ling!! potential in Tim.. i will learn to accept and believe in it!! Yea.. it’s true.. there’s no stinkin way i’m giving this up just because my kin don’t support me.What the hell is up with that lecturer?! man, if me, i would go complain and report to the head of department. that prof need to be fixed. grrr…
Hehe.. maybe you can concentrate on your origamis, paintings and drawings first.. writing can always be done when you’re in the plane? hehehe.. =D
hehe.. it took me awhile, but i was ecstatic when i saw the origami in the comic!! =D You take care too, Mui-Ling!! Hugssss!!! =D
Hi fa…there is a group already begun it’s called The Healing JourneyI joined it a while ago…they have competitions and your work can get featured there…would love to see you join us over there too :DLove K
Hi Karin~ thank you! i joined there quite some time ago.. this piece is also submitted there.. =D
hi fa…sorry i didn’t realise you’d joined there also…was there another different group that people werethinking of starting up especially for depression?Do you know who was thinking of doing that?Hugs, Karin xo
yeap! it’s another group.. i can’t remember who was it.. i only remember he mentioned about it to me back when i’m still pretty new here. hehe.. i didn’t see any such group set up, but i found Healing Journey instead, so i thought i’d join for fun.. n_n"
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