When the agony becomes too much to bear
And you have no one to turn to
What will you do?
i’ve been dealing with depression for the last 6yrs plus. honestly, i don’t really find it funny or anything to be proud of. but i work hard, and try to make light my condition as much as possible, in hope that people will accept me for my humor at least.
but there are times when the pain and agony gets too much to bear.. when i just want to lash out at those who hurt me, at those to jeer at me, at those who despise me, at those who looks down on me. but that is wrong. i know. violence is wrong. to hurt somebody physically is wrong. but to be abused mentally is ok? nope.. i don’t think so..
i’ve heard many different advices.. some of them more sensible than others.. but it all comes down to “it’s easier said than done”. Don’t you agree? it’s always easier to advice others.. but it’s so hard to accept advices ourselves.. but we must always remember, ultimately, it’s up to us to make the choices to solve our problems, to free us from our pain. we can only hope for our beloved ones to help us. but we mustn’t depend on them only. we too, must help ourselves, to free ourselves from our agony.
and no, self mutilation doesn’t help to solve any problem. if fact, you’re creating more problem, since you’re hurting yourself.. try find better ways to ventilate.. different people have different ways.. some do yoga, some run/jog, some listens to music (warning: doom metal can make you more suicidal tho), some play games, some bitch into a blog entry.. find your way.. try to find a healthy way that won’t harm anyone, including yourself. this is the advice from the girl who gets mentally abused from the people she loved and trusted since young..