myself
My goal is to keep soul searching and finding an inner balance and acceptance of who i am.
For as long as i can remember, i have struggled with how i perceive myself physically.
Seeing myself from the outside, i will not recognize who i am.
I am a spiritual, emotional & creative individual and i do not reflect these qualities from the outside.
Being in this mind set, i have not allowed myself to grow into the person i really am.
I finally decided that to understand myself, i would need to become obsessive.
An Obsession in how i see myself.
this would result in many different images, because i dont believe there is one true face of who i am.
I would need to become obsessive in how i would approach my self portraits, and to exhaust every element and image that i am.
Re-creating images of myself, i am becoming more relaxed & comfortable with who i am physically & emotionally
I am in the early stages of this process.
While i am becoming more comfortable seeing myself, i am developing a more obsessive behavior and yearning to keep developing new images of that capture my true colours & emotions.
Some will be fierce, however, i believe that the layers and saturated colours that i use are depicting the emotional experience i feel at the time of creation.
My goal is to keep soul searching and finding an inner balance and acceptance of who i am.
cornelius b o'...
Robert Burns wrote, Wad the power the gift to give us
to see ourselves as others see us
we are who we are, we try to change sometimes, but a leopard can not change its spots.
If no one can accept who we are, they are not worth knowing
frenchblue replied
thank you for your comment, i believe iwe need to accept who we are rather than others, if we believe we are worthy of beauty and perfection, we will be seen that way!
cheers!
John14
yeh go girl..i agree keep searching..i too am stripping away the layers love this writing
frenchblue replied
thanks for noticing me!!! cm x
Chris Capizzi
“I am what I am and that’s all that I am!”......Popeye
frenchblue replied
so true!!! no matter how many times we try to re-invent ourselves we will always be what we are!
Terry Hinkle
Yes… “inner balance and acceptance” plus no fear or judgment of self (or others). You stated it all so clearly. You are on your path. Great work.
frenchblue replied
thank you for taking the time to read it, it believe that i will need to exhaust all of what i can to find that balance!....i will eventually get there, however it may take some time as life is so demanding and finding the time is always an issue!!!
frenchblue
please feel free to read “myself”....cheers! cm
princessleah
Keep soul searching sister…..it’s the best journey you’ll ever have…...
frenchblue replied
thank you so much princessleah! im working that out….it feels amazing! cm x
madvlad
it is sad in a way we dont do this seeking until later in our lifes so who we meet will be meeting us not a show we felt we had to put on to please our own fears of who they expect us to me we sell our selfs short in the beginning of our lifes dont we? so keep the self search going i am an i am old as dirt
frenchblue replied
thank you once again!!!! you always have an interesting twist to your thoughts!! cm x
cosimopiro
I can only encourage you in your endeavours….self searching is a worthy pursuit as long as you take a look outside now and again (which I’m sure you do). Finding a balance between the macro world and the micro world is the key, but not always easy to achieve. A good share of yourself, thank you.
frenchblue replied
wow…..thank you so much for stopping by and reading my work…i am honored that you would take the time, since i have never seen myself as a writer. and what i do write comes from a non judgmental unconscious mind…which may result in somethings not making much sense!!!
once again….thank you!!!! cm x
msdebbie 29 days ago
Hello Frenchblue, I really relate to this musing – took me back to a self-examination from when I first joined RB xoxo