How did they call it in the Bible? A dale of deep darkness. I walk along the path of my life and the light goes out, the inspiration leaves, the inner voice silences, the passion extinguishes, the energy runs low. Life is like wading through a swamp that almost swallows me completely. I can hardly breathe. It gets darker and darker and I feel fear burning like a ball of fire in my stomach. I am afraid I am doomed, did everything wrong. The light disappears completely. I wonder what is left. Well, I am still there, in a terrible state of mind, but still there. My heart pumps, my lungs breathe. I am still alive. And now it all seems a little bit different. The light is not gone; it is just harder to reach it. But it is there, always there. Still feel frightened, but I have faith again.


And now it is time to learn the cockpit flows of the Airbus A320 by head and do some serious flying. It can’t always be fun.


-Partial self portrait in charcoal and pastel.
-Photolayers.
-Digital freaking.

Tags

breathe, charcoal, dark, faith, fear, life, light, pastel, portrait, self

Comments

  • Ruth Palmer
    Ruth Palmerabout 7 years ago

    Excellent work FlyBoy! Yes, the light is ALWAYS there!

  • Martin Derksema
    Martin Derksemaabout 7 years ago

    Thanks Ruth, but still I wish I had a flash light.

  • Ruth Palmer
    Ruth Palmerabout 7 years ago

    Faith is believing in the unseen. God Bless You!

  • Martin Derksema
    Martin Derksemaabout 7 years ago

    I agree, but this was an example of my sense of humour that , mostly, only I have to laugh about. God bless you too!

  • Kelly Bird
    Kelly Birdabout 7 years ago

    Super cool piece Flyboy!! well done!!!!

  • Ozcloggie
    Ozcloggieabout 7 years ago

    Just the colours got me in, FlyBoy. Then all the layers and contrast. Good one!

  • Martin Derksema
    Martin Derksemaabout 7 years ago

    Thanks, Ozcloggie.

  • madvlad
    madvladabout 7 years ago

    wow moving well done with tons of vib,s of ID in it and deep verse too you are a man of moods held in check waiting to see what,s next on your mental path scary and exciting too

  • Martin Derksema
    Martin Derksemaabout 7 years ago

    Thanks, my pal. It is a great gift to have a soulmate.

  • MaryO
    MaryOabout 7 years ago

    First I read your text. You are a great writer and your words went straight to my heart. You are so gifted, never lose the light.
    Then I gasped at your extremely powerful image.The colours, the expression and the layers, it all comes together in a big explosion of light conquering the darkness.
    I love it. You did a great job.

desktop tablet-landscape content-width tablet-portrait workstream-4-across phone-landscape phone-portrait