Hello all ThankU so much for asking Yes I’m still’ere! & yep l’ve missed U HeApS!

I’m so sorry it seems as though l’ve been so rude not responding to my wonderful features, the beautiful little pop in hellos to new friends admiring my work THANKYOU all so much l can’t tell you how uplifting it is to read through them. I’m going to be honest (& as brief as possible) emotionally & physically it’s been the most draining & beyond the most testing 2 ½ years of my life. The best l could do is totally focus on my boys (even though at times there is more testosterone than oxygen that fills our home) & of course my camera continues to be an extension of my soul & has the warn out marks to prove it. My laptop has been out of action for the last few months & although it was torture it was ‘kinda’ for a reason, It’s just been to hard to focus on my art my life is still consumed with fighting a big insurance company, l am never going to give up no matter how bad my health gets no matter how much they torture me & no matter how long it takes. To this day it is disgusting, inhumane & it must be made against the law on how certain insurance companies can make people SUFFER for such an unreasonable amount of time because of their so many well known loop holes. I say ‘we’ because they SO drag my family through all this cut glass laced mud of beaurocracy too, we are now at the stage of waiting on a court date in a sense l have all my fingers & toes crossed that l can get publicity in this shocking fight l know every family & friend l have will either be there or right a letter in regards to exactly what kind of woman l am & how much l have been through & what l do do to hold on & just get through it all & along with all the specialists letters & the fact it took 2 years to be ‘properly’ diagnosed with chronic pain syndrome (common with those who have suffered loss of limbs). It explains my profuse sweating (here l am thinking it’s bloody extended menopause in overdrive) swollen limbs(l was told it was ‘possibly’ allergic reactions) nerve damage through the mastectomy (no discredit to my surgeon who did do a wonderful job) the list goes on & on but l tick alllllll the boxes, it did come to going on a doctors strike for a few months it just seemed that nobody was listening properly. Treatment of any sought is still a nightmare in rural areas any treatment is usually an hour away & being my age l only qualify for just a few free visits not to mention the cost of fuel & waiting lists that are just a sick joke. I am on the waiting list to be told when l can go on the official waiting list at a Pain Clinic in the city & to be honest although l know l desperately need to go the thought of weekly visits into the city is enough to bring me to tears, I’m hoping it’s worth it. I was hoping for a new bloody boob by now but 2 years l’m still on the waiting lists waiting list & the sad thing is I couldn’t go under due to really high blood pressure & until we sought out this bloody pain stuff. So patience continues to get pushed to the maximum & I continue to push on taking thousands & thousands of bird shots even the magpies sit on my shoulder & we can hold a conversation for up to an hour, l have hundreds of the sky & the usual few hundred plants from my veranda. It’s beyond daunting how much l am behind but l’ll continue one day at a time until l do catch up. Just know I never stop having hope & never stop trying to do the best l can with what l have & never missing an appointment with a good psychologist has been detrimental (l’ve recently learnt awareness doesn’t always bring happiness or even clarity for that matter but we’ll keep plug’en away). For now l’m just going to show you what l been up to on my verandah shivering away no matter how many blankets (l’m soooooooo over the CHILL). I hope to pop in on a few of you if my eyes stay open long enough l really Hope you like my work, in my solitude l have tried to perfect my shots right from my camera & although being as blind as a bat & taking a dozen crappy to get that one grousse shot it means much less work on the laptop. Of course l still do the over the top tweeking of my shots & l do have a couple of the usual flipz arty pieces again l hope l haven’t lost my touch & l hope you enjoy XXXX

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