falsehope

hope is all i have
and its all i need

i thought you were waiting for me

why dont you look at me now?
with those sad sullen eyes that taunt
and love at the same time?

who hate me
as much as they used to love me

now im paying for my foolish deeds
my wasted love

he has a strong hold on me
on the edge of hurt
but off the edge of pleasure

no things to poison this state that shes in
even with that thrill

youve done this to me
my feelings scattered and chaotic
i feel out of control

with pitiful crystalline tears
dripping down my face

i sit
hatred pulsing through my veins

exposed to the light
making them burn into dust

i lay there
empty
drained
almost dead

the light pierces my eyes
temporary colbalt blindness

we have paid our debts
we enter this world of our own
where we only see the fazed outlines
and rushing colours around us

she is mine
no one elses

and a touch of spattered blood
in each reach of the eye

She would find new desires, new dreams

im visiting you
you dont know im there
my innocence and small laughter

i scratch at the ready made wounds
droplet after droplet
my mind is lost

hold me with your weak and cold arms
i’ll always feel warmth deep inside