I was not looking, to place you, fully in my reality.
You were my calm, in my everyday scramble.
One thought of you brought a smile to my lips.
It gave me strength, to carry out my duties,
Those that, were once, not so mundane.
The scent of you, lingers within me.
Even though you are a figure of a ghost, in my life.
I can close my eyes and touch you throughthe scent that remains with me.
This helps carry away my sadness.
My dreams can run wild, in the nights of need, with no regrets.
Raw, true passion, feelings for one,
Can scramble emotions with the first real touch.
With time all would untangle, to be properly placed.
I was not looking for you, to be part of my reality, even though
The Fantasy kept me, sane, to carry out my life.
This is no longer available to take away my dullness.
This has been made clear~
Sadness and tears have taken over in vain.
I have been thrown back to reality with no thoughts from you.
I will stand tall and fill my life with all the beauty that surrounds me.
Forever holding the thoughts of you dearly to my heart..
For I was not looking to place you fully in my reality.
FMP Santos~ 9-12-10