Recent Pain

forever cold once again

But once again / again and again / I woke up / wanting to be / forever numbed

Or maybe there never was

You close your eyes / And pretend there are no more / No more nightmares / Knocking at the front door

Our demise (ramble)

Sing a song in your tomb / It’s all gone / The pain the life / This is our demise


She’s gone ahead / Left / The ship is sunk / And the room / Dark

in the hazard of the night

Your fat lips no longer / linger / On my starving and enslaved / lips,

remind me again

remind me again / why there’s a sun in the sky / tell me with your sweet words / that there’s more / then just these memories…

And please walk away

Remember to throw some dirt / On where you buried me

drink my blood with me

Can be / There as / Can be / Ropes, / Knives,

touch my beard in the dark

just / come here / baby / so i can kiss / you once more

creeping closer.

no longer sleeping next to you / never again one day / brings the nightmares back / into my plane of sight

with your what was what could be (rough draft)

it doesn’t make my heart beat again / but that’s the story / and here i am / waiting for you

a collapsing heart (the flowers in the field)

instead of holding you / and looking into your eyes / i have / this / a collapsing heart / (for you: listen to The Magnetic Fields When …

That makes me a man.

a special kind of man / a killing man / gun in my hand / rulin’ this god damned land

removing your face

you see / i miss feeling you / under my knife / in the summertime / removing your face / from my memory

from a million fallen birds

but that’s something / i guess / we can suppress each sing-song / breath / as we take our last one

My rusted capsule.

Lavished / in the queen’s / lingerie, / you possess my thin mind. / With smothering hips / and mockingbird lips,

without you, my little boy

with you / i am / everything good / smiling clowns / lions cleaning their cubs / diseases in remission / a heart in submission

with open sores

don’t forget me / regret me / fret me / let me be the sea / and cover your shores / with open sores

then death hit the brakes

and death was driving / while in the back / i was fucking tranquility / double-crossed style

i’ll be taking the easy way out

i am taking a vacation / but i won’t be going anywhere / i won’t be home / i’ll be taking the easy way out

i wrote a poem about you tonight

after finally meeting you / in person / and then kissing you / later on / after the movie / at the end of this night / before waving …

to bury the bones of too many victims

to rip the clothes / off like island beasts / to spoil the virgins / to bleed the sinners / to bury the bones / of too many victims

just lie with me tonight

man / cannot love / but only himself / because we so quickly and / with ghosts and whispers / forget

dating site blues

and now my wine bottles / are emptied / three in a row / and my stomach / is rotting

a gas oven to rest my weary head in

not breathing / not thinking / for so long / my nipples got hard

the pain implant

turn it up until the black becomes / white / agitation levels are at a max / the battery is at full charge / your life is spinning out of …

of the roses and silk panties

the body is dismembered by fading memories / but her loving heart still beats me down / every time i think of her

the first born from our love affair

hope for you that they do not / turn against you / and devour your eyes / on the way to your heart

my meat cleaver is now free

this bucket of putrid dismemberments / these thoughts left rotting in the outhouse / the location of the mindless millions / the bucket i…

let me gnaw on your soul

let me gnaw on your / soul / some more / suckle on your / dreams / and casually / remove your / freedom / from your future

a life pretty still

a still life pretty / pretty much lost / afraid of this fact / so dreams replaced sugary reality

sincerely and goodbye

i am writing a letter / to suffocate myself / with / and i and all that and you too / this hul·la·ba·loo / records defining a living / …

how a little boy deals with being alone

and hearing you say / that you will miss me / when you are the same / really kills me / because i can only wonder / how a little boy / …

but the words left no harm

the lines connecting our actions / got tangled and tripped us up / leaving bloody scuffs on our possible outcomes

like hammers against kitten skulls

and pick up the pieces of fur and blood / lust and tongues wrapping around more / tongues with words with no sounds / i can hear your lau…

damn you for forgetting me

if i squint hard enough i believe / i may see you waiting there for me / in a place only separated by time and space / that’s all / …

the destroyer

this man / the destroyer / with intentions set / on mass destruct / no sense of concern / for the other man / and his golden child …

but it’s christmas somewhere (the thief)

there’s a girl who i loved / cuddling in her prettiest of underwear / telling the thief / that this is a beautiful christmas / that …

now that they’ve all been buried

now that they’ve all been buried / forgotten names on the tombstones / you can leave a flower or two / just because you remember w…

Victus Mortuus Yum-Yum

dancing wildly, eating excitedly / swimming in a jelly of brain and fat

it’s the same now

praising your god or your disease / it’s the same now / it never mattered anyhow
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