Habitual

I kiss
the smoothness of a gun
I lick
the sharpness of a knife
I taste
the happiness of these pills
I suck
the dryness of my noose

Deny…
Discard me at your peril
Defy…
I’m scarred, abused and ferrel
I fly…
Broken wings curtail my escape
I cry…
Spoken silence upon me I drape

I punch
the swiftness of a speedball
I knee
the stoniness of a joint
I smack
the cleanliness of these needles
I kick
the pureness of my habits

Retry…
Bleed these impurities from my veins
Rely…
In need with the betrayal of my futile games
I try…
Force the destruction from within myself
I die…
Remorse is decaying, mirroring my health

Copyright © evolvingthumbs

  • MissAlexis

    MissAlexis

    “I kiss
    the smoothness of a gun
    I lick
    the sharpness of a knife
    I taste
    the happiness of these pills”

    I like this part alot, maybe it’s becuase I put alot of these things into my mouth as well, common ground, so mutual understanding.

  • Elizium

    Elizium

    ...it always intrigues me the romanticism that can fuel addiction & suicide…

    Many thanks for the comment…i hope you are on more stable ground now.

    Elizium x

  • mimi yoon

    mimi yoon

    dark and destructive…
    but for some strange reason, i find it very raw and seductive…

  • Elizium replied

    Thankyou Mimi…your adjectives have described this piece perfectly…!! They were the 4 words I was trying to convey…
    Thankyou for your insight and honesty…

    Elizium x

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  • Elizium replied

    Many thanks for the feature!! Much appreciated…

    Elizium

  • Ronjohnnj

    Ronjohnnj

    this is very good, very dark and chilling

  • Elizium replied

    Many thanks! I’m glad you enjoyed the chills…

    Elizium x

  • Matt Roberts

    Matt Roberts

    Great poem. Sounds like it should be a death metal song or something :p

  • Elizium replied

    Thanks Matt…Interesting how you liken it to a Death Metal song as this piece was written with the intensity of Rock vocals/lyrics in mind…also it was inspired by a Type O Negative T-shirt I have. The backprint portrays 4 different methods of suicide…pills, gun, razor, noose… and it got me thinking about the glamourization of death…the seductive allure of the unknown…

    Elizium x

  • Matt Roberts

    Matt Roberts

    Hmm, interesting.

  • Coronus

    Coronus


    Powerful and raw!

  • Elizium replied

    Hey, many thanks Jonathan!! Glad you enjoyed it…

    Elizium x

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