Ok….so after 17 years of continual smoking, it has now been 2 months without a single cigarette…apart from a couple of joints (Do they count?) no nicotine has passed these trembling lips of mine….i miss them…they were an extension of my hand…like some sixth digit…but it’s intriguing to extinguish ones habits…
Do I feel better for it…Yes!………………..and no…
….mmm the date on this is wrong…..
….actual time of writing 3.25am 28th Feb 2009
Medusa
Congratulations Elizium! Maybe commiserations too, as it is rather like ending a love/hate relationship is it not? When one craves and desires what one knows is not doing one any good in the long run…
Keep it up, you’ll smell and taste a lot better too…! ;-)
Mx
Elizium
Thankyou Medusa x
It has now been just over 3 months since my last cigarette…I still have cravings…but I try and focus those cravings onto something else ;-)
Elizium x
Peter Searle (...
You’re a brave man. I was off them and alcohol for 18 months, and then my last ex-wife suddenly announced she was leaving and taking my two small kids. That was about 8 years ago. The first thing I did was rummage through the cupboards until I found some bottles, and helped myself to half a pack of her cigarettes, then went to the bottom of our back yard and spent the rest of the day smoking and drinking. I shouldn’t have done it, cos I’ve been smoking ever since, and loving it. All I needed was an excuse. Must admit while I was clean I finally understood why smoking bothers non-smokers, as it does smell, and I certainly was a lot healthier, and things tasted better. However I’m now fully hooked again, so I truly admire your strength. Here’s me now
Elizium:
Hey Peter
Thankyou for your support and understanding. It’s never easy giving up an addiction. At the height of my smoking days I was so vehemently opposed to quitting that I often used to say “the only thing to stop me from smoking will be death”…but there was also a less darker side to me that said “the only thing to stop me from smoking will be love”…and well…I fell in love…and I breathe easier because of her…
I do think, though, that once a smoker always a smoker, in that the temptation will always be there. After time that temptation will lessen but, as you so openly expressed, all it takes to regress is a highly emotional occurance and the comforts of ones’ habits will emerge again…
I am truly saddened to hear your loss…and can fully understand why you grabbed the first packet of cigarettes that you cold find…as I know when I feel bouts of stress or loss…cigarettes become that comforting friend again…
Your sketch is great…! You look like you have LIVED!!!..and I, in turn, admire your strength!
Elizium x