7% of My Body Weight

Pangs of a signature metallic smell and taste.
Brightens white sheet and puts a smile to my face.
Sustains life and feeds addiction.
Alleviates panic and strengthens conviction.

Flows freely from gaping wound to parted lips.
Drains color and resolve as it drips.
Aligns my mind and sways my hips,
as the fairy tale romance rips… shifts and

I realize it’s okay to taste exotic cuisine.

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I am not Emo.
I am not into self mutilation without purpose.
This is not for attention,…

and if you can’t handle this or feel inclined to look away know that I am okay with that as well. (-:


blood, drain, fetish, blood fetish, personal sacrifice, adaptation, growth, being different, wow i just started my own group

Originally dark blonde, shy girl with an inferiority complex. But that’s no fun now is it? Black hair, yellowy hazel eyes, a “the louder the better” mentality, and an ego the size of Detroit (as fake as my raven hair I should mention) rounds out my very normal nautre. (-: Judge me by my poetry and my writing, and you’ll know me better than 85% of the rest of the world. (-:

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  • Lisa  Jewell
    Lisa Jewellabout 3 years ago

    I think you’ve captured in ink the mindset of a cutter…..not an easy topic to tackle…well done

  • I was there for a long time, so I suppose it makes sense I could bring it back up for spring soul cleaning. However my fascination and pure obsession with blood continues. (-: Thank you for the read.

    – Edibl3leper

  • George Coombs
    George Coombsabout 3 years ago

    I want to agree with Lisa, I have worked with cutters in the past so I can relate well to this and to Lisa’s perceptive comment

  • George, I had forgotten for a tick what you do for a living. A very honest endevor indeed, and I am sincerely glad it gave you the ability to relate to this. Thank you for your comment.

    – Edibl3leper

  • autumnwind
    autumnwindabout 3 years ago

    I love the poem, and I do not judge. However, the only knowledge of this subject I have is through a friend’s teenage daughter. Reasons have got to be different and complicated for all. Still…want to hug you. : )) Hope that’s ok.

  • No it’s quite okay. My reasons for cutting are not of clinical sort. At least not in my opinion. Here is where I get all weird and TMI, but like I’ve said a million times I am honest and open to a fault. I am what I refer to as a “blood fetishist”. Blood being so intimate and powerful, has always captivated me. I was the kid who ran to the kitchen when my my Mom cut herself. Somehow over the years it has evolved into blood letting which is a practice that is done in a sterile environment, with sterile tools. In short I drink blood. LMAO Nahhh that doesn’t sound crazy at all. lol It’s a sexual thing, I may be perverse and crazy, and weird, buuut at least I wear my crazy on the outside for all to see. Can’t imagine what people with tight lips do behind closed doors. Disclaimer: The act of blood letting should never be done without first weighing the pros and cons, and should only be entered into with someone who has been tested for std’s, as you should also be. Other than that, if you are an adult, and you and your partner feel spunky, haaave at it and have fun.

    – Edibl3leper

  • autumnwind
    autumnwindabout 3 years ago

    you make a good point about being out in the open honest, and hey, we are all crazy in my opinion. actually kind of relieved it is a cool kinky turn on thing for you, rather than a million other reasons. actually, I was reminded of True Blood, right now my favorite show. not inferring any vampire thing, just that the show turns me on, and well…it does involve blood. lol hugs! xoxoxoxoxo

  • Uh Oh Autumn (I hope it’s okay I call you Autumn), becoming turned on by shows like True Blood are the start or beginning down that dark dark road, to Edibl3leper’ville lol Nahh, it’s harmless, but in truth I went through a whole phase where I thought I was possibly a cult vampire freak, eventually I realized it wasn’t the skin and fangs and long hair with glazed eyes combo, it was just the blood. Besides if I did find the most gorgeous man vampire that ever existed and he did by chance want me, the truth of the matter is he’d still fart, forget to open the window when he uses the bathroom, refuse to lower the seat after he lifts it because if I am really worried about falling in I’ll look before I squat, and do that annoying washcloth/penis trick anyway. I’d rather stick with what I got. lol I’m already used to it, and sometimes the penis/washcloth trick is funny. lmao

    – Edibl3leper

  • raymondoantonio
    raymondoantonioabout 3 years ago


  • Raymondo, your comments are truly unique and always honest, I always perk up when I see them on my list. thank you most sincerely. (-;

    – Edibl3leper

  • lilynoelle
    lilynoelleabout 3 years ago

    ;) I don’t have any sort of blood fetish, but I’d rather see blood used in this way than an emo-release. Nice poem, Mandi.

  • Yeah, I know what you mean, at my age the whole emo-realease thing bores me. It seems so much an awkward attempt at communication where communication is not something that person understands or even trusts. It’s just the brain misfiring me’thinks. However I have honest memories where I thought that was all I had at the time, so I am split down the middle between teenage Mandi and adult Mandi, wish I could have talked to her really. The upside, I think my old scars are sexy, empowering even, and I happen to enjoy others scars, not solely from a sexual stand point (but more often than not, lol I am hyper sexual I think hahaha), occasionally they just make me feel closer to a person in a real human way. I dunno if I am making sense or not so I will zip it. lol

    – Edibl3leper

  • autumnwind
    autumnwindabout 3 years ago

    LMAO girlie you are cracking me up with that last reply!!!!! : ))) xoxoxoxoxoxo

  • At least my idiosyncrasy is good for a laugh once in a while. hehehe

    – Edibl3leper

  • lilynoelle
    lilynoelleabout 3 years ago

    You always make sense, in a Mandi sort of way. I understand Mandi-speak. ;)

  • So what you’re saying is you are fluent in Mandi’nese? Hahaha I kill me.

    – Edibl3leper

  • SimplyRed
    SimplyRedabout 3 years ago


  • Wow Red, really? I don’t even know what to say, this is just amazing. This high is probably better than any I ever paid for. Thank you so much.

    – Edibl3leper

  • vampvamp
    vampvampabout 3 years ago

    amazingly written….

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