i know your deepest secret fear.
see I like just making some random bullshit title that has nothing to do with my writing.. this is a little of a bitching session. You see at about like 4:15 this morning I escorted the lady out of the house and my grandma is up at the computer right, not a big deal. well when I come back in, my grandma tells me how she got a check back from sending my mom money, (she’s in the arizona pen) she couldn’t figure out why. Well she calls and the guy says he can’t tell her any info. and there’s no telling what’s wrong with my mom, and that she needs to come out there. Well she’s already got some big thing planned to go see her with my aunt lorrie. she talks for awhile and I listen eating a pop tart. and I’m like yeah Lorrie can go, she knows my mom better than me and seen her way more times… and my grandma says oh she’s going for me. and that is when it dawns on me that everything she’s said has been geared toward poor grandma. I was like disguisted, couldn’t even finish eating. She didn’t really care that my mom was dying, she wants everyone to feel sorry for her bc she is. So fucking pathetic. It makes me rage inside thinking about. Ofcourse she’s fucking called everyone, letting everyone know so she can get this attention. It’s fucking terrible. It turns out she just ended up getting like passed out from working in the desert…I don’t know she’s been up all night and still like “cracked out” (she’s not it just seems that way.) just so she can get attention. Fucking saddening… and they say you end up marrying or end up being just like the parent you can’t stand… I fucking hope not. That was my little vent session. Nothing great in the writing, not a thrilling story just my g-ma getting on my nerves.
Oyo Como Va
JenniferB
aww… cheer up hun, Jennifer B will put a smile back on that cute little face of yours again.
emaN tsriF Gil... replied
you always do, your like the sun, dependable and full of life.
JenniferB
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Rosie Red
i’ve been in the pen before too. no fun. :(
it must suck to have your mom there.
emaN tsriF Gil... replied
yeah it is defently no fun…. my mom I really do not know her, just through mail she’s been in and out of jail/looney bin my whole life… but it does still suck…. I hate for anyone to be incaratated…. were you in the cali pen? texas pen sucks pretty bad… terrible facilities and a whole list of other things
Rosie Red
yes, in Cali state pen, but only for ten months. i think some people ‘need’ to be incarcerated, and not for anybody else’s sake, but for themselves..it actually was a very good thing for me, but if my term had been any longer, it would have been very very bad. i very much respect people who handle long term incarceration with dignity.