I’m a recovering addict. I love to paint and anything really that has to do with art.

I’m having a beautful baby girl named Kara
she was born on may 31 2009
Im married to the most amazing man ever
so glad i can spend my life with him and of course my daughter

“this too shall pass”

  • Age: 27
  • Joined: August 2008


Hello Everyone

I am back hopefully for longer than last time. I really want to be creative / Im stating to work on photoshop a little bit but i feel old and out dated.. im hoping it will start getting easier and more familiar to me soon. / My daughter is now 19 months and its so crazy she had an amazing christmas as did i i loved it being the “santa” / We moved into a new apartment which i absolut…
Posted over 5 years – 1 comments

Life on lifes terms

Hey everyone how are you? I’ve been crazy busy with life not feeling very artistic.. I don’t paint much it’s hard sometimes just to do my steps go to meeting spend time with the love of my life and my baby girl. When I would get high i didn’t have all of this to balance out because I didn’t have a life I just exsisted. I’m so grateful that I have to balance my …
Posted over 6 years – 1 comments

I'm niki I'm an addict and I feel like using today.

Somedays are better than others / today is not one of them / I hate myself today / I want to use today / my depression is getting worse / I need help today / I can’t get to a meeting today / but today I know what to do / write and talk about my fucked up thoughts / I wanna cut myself / I need a release / but I don’t / i know better today / just for today
Posted over 6 years – 2 comments


Obsession / the root of my fucked up thoughts / I wait here for the answer / I wonder if I’m wrong / I ask myself / why do I care / praying / crying / wallowing in the past / obsession / the root of evil for my addicted self / why do I obsess / I’m an addict / i’m a fucking addict / but I’m recovering / obsession / self doubt / insecurities / living in the past
Posted about 7 years – 1 comments
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