Deep Sea Diver
I most long
For another woman’s love…
But love may be
The very poison that kills me.
Deep Sea Diver belongs to the following groups:
Live, Love, Dream: and Two Beings GroupMy heart’s a cracked pearl
Encapsulated in an oyster.
A sea of blood encapsulates it—
The sea that camouflages it
As it breathes in oxygen
And filters out carbon
While pumping out deeper seas
To further camouflage it.
We dove into each other.
Swam
Deeper into each other,
Opened each other’s oyster,
Stole each other’s pearl,
And swam away together.
Then I entangled myself
In your sea of kelp
And scraped myself raw
On your coral.
You swam away from me
Believing I swam away from you.
Dropped each pearl
Into the other’s sea
Before we swam away from each other
Forever,
Never to see each other again…
But to continually see “us”
Within my pearl.
I still breathe you in each day,
But poison myself
Filtering carbon-filled emotions
Into my heart,
Suffocating the very existence
I remember
With memories
Camouflaged in oxygen…
Still longing
For your presence.
Still longing to look into your eyes—
A peek into cracked windows
Refracting light,
Refracting joy
Into our soul,
Reflecting love
Deeper into each other,
Into each other’s darkened heart.
Still longing
For your kiss
Camouflaged in saliva
I want to taste
On your tongue
Camouflaging the air
I want to breathe in
From your mouth…
Our eyes closed,
Open to dive
Deeper into the kiss,
Deeper into each other,
Into each other’s flooded heart.
Still longing
To touch you—
To dive
Beneath the layers of clothing
Camouflaging the naked surface
Of your body
Camouflaging the sea
That camouflages your heart…
My hands
Touching you
Where you most wanted
To be touched,
Swimming ashore
In your shallow skin
Until I touch
Your chest
To feel
A quickened heartbeat—
A quicker pump
Beckoning us
To dive
Deeper into each other,
Into each other’s layered naked heart.
I poison myself
By breathing you in—
Inhaling the carbon
Knowing we’ll no longer ever be,
Exhaling the oxygen-filled sensations
And connection I continually long for…
The oxygen that camouflages the carbon
As the carbon-filled emotions
Pump out deeper seas
Of oxygen-filled memories
To perpetuate and intensify them.
These memories,
These emotions,
These longings
Run thicker and murkier
Than a sea of blood
And camouflage yet reveal
What I still experience
In my heart.
I most long
For someone
Who will dive
Into these murky waters,
Swim
Beneath my sea of baggage—
A sea of kelp
And coral
Ready to entangle her heart
And scrape it raw—
Open up my oyster again,
Piece my pearl back together again,
Steal it,
Treasure it
With all her life,
Treasure us
With all our life,
Then swim away with me
Forever.
I most long
For another woman’s love…
But love may be
The very poison that kills me.
Russ Clement
RMonroe
Oh Wow….excellent words…passionate, powerful and emotive….Love this:)
DiscoverMe replied
Thank you so much for your kind words.
Be careful to not let your love of this get you “poisoned”, though.
(I saw that you faved it.)
linaji
RUSS!! I DID READ THIS.. I LOVE THE BEGINNING.. AND I KNOW … most feel this killing that is seeming separation from each other when the time is over.. but.. I don’t feel that anymore.. I feel like
‘Dropped each pearl
Into the other’s sea
Before we swam away from each other’
So we did and never to be apart.. we have givin each other that pearl you speak of.. that precious feeling of bringing me here.. to a tender spot.. all the better unless I poison my own mind with the belief that it was all for naught.. it never is.. It is what it is.. and the end brings me to a new beginning.. Bless all of the pain.. and the fear.. I create damn good poems..(above Russ is a damn good poem about the pain itself) and I get to be free to love again!!
Russ.. do you mind.. if I tell you how this makes me feel.. ? Linaji
DiscoverMe replied
Go for it.
linaji
well I just did… teehee.. Russ you are cute. I feel it.. you make me feel happy right now.
ManaMoon
I could hardly breathe while reading this….she must have really taken your breathe away figuratively and literally.
Go get an oxygen tank LOL
and next time swim in a pool, stay out of coral reefs
DiscoverMe replied
LOL
Once I trust the docs enough to know they’re not poisoning the tank with overdoses of carbon…I’ll be sure to get the stings & cuts from the coral healed.
Ironically enough…I was the one who got sick after she left…because SHE seemed to react to ME, over time, like she was ALLERGIC to me, or something, which caused her to leave me in the FIRST place.
“Scarred for life”...but no longer bleeding eternally. So…I’m “better”.