The Attempt

dimarie

The Attempt

acrylic on canvas
slightly altered in ps

this piece was not so easy to do, i had to dig into my mind, into parts shut off shut down blocked off but always there…
this is a glimpse into how i came to be who i am today.

Theres a story to this
based on true events
tho i’ve never understood it
it has never made sense
how one who was given all of my trust
all of my love and all of my lust
crushed it and twisted me
til there was nothing much left
broken and bruised
and living regret
These were my dark days
my youth mispent
when my heart belonged to a monster
and my shattered soul wept
Years went by in this madness
why i cannot say
but this event depicted here
was the beginning of the end of my dark days
he tried to put out the light that i am
he attempted to end it all
but that fate was not the fate meant for me
and somehow i survived the fall

Domestic abuse happens everywhere, both in seen and unseen places,
it isnt somethin only depicted on tv, its real and its happening.
and not just to those you’ll never meet
one day it mite happen to you
or someone you love
one way we can help fight this injustice
is awareness, education, resources and aide for those in need.
Intolerance of abuse against women, children, even some men…, of any nature, is needed to break the cycles of abuse and neglect.
We need more Resources. The human race needs Help.
Help make the world we’re in a better place
we’ve only the one world and we’ve all got to share it.
lets strive for a better tomorrow for our children today.

thankyou for taking the time to view my art and (hopefully) comment…
please have a look at my other artwork…
hope you enjoy! :)

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The Attempt by dimarie
The Attempt by dimarie
  • roybarry

    roybarry

    Amazing and disturbing imagery, superb Art.

  • dimarie replied

    Thanx roybarry!
    I really appreciate your comments!
    it was disturbing to paint… memories can be painful, but I’m determined to heal myself and this is one of the first steps…
    thankyou again!

  • handprintz

    handprintz

    A very emotional piece,this shows your strength of character ,in being able to step out the other side, thank-you for sharing this

  • dimarie replied

    Thanx Trudi!
    Thats a really nice compliment thankyou!
    its been over a decade now since this happened, yet still raw in my mind…
    I’m thankful I stepped out of the gloom, tho it was a long and at times thankless process.
    It still threatens to overwhelm me at times, the collection of memories of suffering at the hands of ones you trusted…
    but I am in a much happier place now.
    Thanx again for your kind words!

  • TeriLee

    TeriLee

    Fantastically done….very deep and touching….great job!

  • dimarie replied

    Thanx TeriLee!
    it means alot to me that you have found this touching!
    I’m glad it turned out ok, as i had planned to paint it much more realistically, but when i painted it, well, it just came out like this.
    I think i was not yet ready to create a photo realistic version of one of my dark days,

  • H M Bascom

    H M Bascom

    Thank you for your provocative and beautifully executed art.

  • dimarie replied

    Thankyou Helen thats a very nice lovely compliment!
    as far as this piece goes, well, If my art can get even just one person to think twice before they turn a blind eye on abuse, or even better, prevent one from dealing it, then I’d be more than rapt!
    this is the first piece of many more to come as i feel it is time to dredge up, sift thru and throw out all that i’ve endured in my past.
    its a bit strange, putting a piece of yourself out there for the world to see, and ultimately judge, but its been surprisingly freeing.
    this path i’ve started, that will help to heal my soul, will hopefully heal my mind..

  • Luckyvegetable

    Luckyvegetable

    Be well dimarie, and thank you for sharing. this is a beautiful and disturbing piece.

  • dimarie replied

    Thankyou Luckyvegetable!
    Your kind words are appreciated alot!

  • GiovanniMurrell

    GiovanniMurrell

    I’m sorry you had to go through such painful times. No one deserves that kind of hardship. It’s a brave thing to share your experiences through your art. And it’s beautiful that it can help you heal. I’m with you – the cycle needs to be broken.

  • dimarie replied

    Thanx Giovanni!
    you know, for a long time, i thought I did deserve it…
    i know now tho that i didnt.
    sometimes i wonder if i would be who i am now if i hadnt of gone thru all that, would i have the same beliefs and values that i do? would i be someone else? or exactly the same, but just not damaged…
    I usually dont let myself obsess over that question too much, as it just doesnt really matter anymore, I am who i am, my past is painful and tragic at times sure, but i have alot of love to give! and i dont want to be detached, that is just another type of gloom, another few chapters of dark days i dont wish to lengthen.
    Thanx for your lovely comments! I appreciate it so much!

  • ellamental

    ellamental

    if you can feel it you can heal it. you never know how many people are helped when we step up to face our dark parts truthfully. and the more beautiful becomes the work and the worker. thanks

  • dimarie replied

    thankyou ellamental!
    i believe you’re right, if one has the will power, the want and the strength to heal oneself, it is possible.
    thanx for your wonderful comments! means alot!

  • Mark German

    Mark Germancommunity host

    This is a sensational piece.
    I love the whole feel to it – from the colours to the curves and concept.
    Well done :)

  • dimarie replied

    Thankyou Mark!
    I really appreciate your thoughts on this! thanx! :)

  • Marie Magnusson

    Marie Magnusson

    gives me goose bumps this painting, very strong and disturbing. takes a strong woman to get herself away from an abusive relationship

  • dimarie replied

    Thankyou Marie!
    Alot of me went into this one…
    I was so young, and so scared, the last thing i felt was strong… but somewhere deep down i knew i was worth fighting for, took alot of soul searching, time and willpower but it finally sunk in that i could have a better life.
    Thankyou for your kind words! it really does mean alot ot me!

  • Ashley DeRossett

    Ashley DeRossett

    This is a beautiful work of art. And I just adore this. When I finally save up some money, I want to buy this. I have a piece called, “Careful Who You hand It To” it’s about the same trust you talk about in the description, you’ve loved a monster and so have I, if you get time you should go see mine. You’d understand! I love this! Thank-you!

  • dimarie replied

    Thanx Ashley!
    wow, youre very welcome!
    I had a look at your “be careful who you hand it to” piece, it is very moving! If only we could choose who we loved hmn?
    I am glad to hear that your monster is in the past now, like mine are, i hope you are healing!
    Thanx so much for your lovely comments! i really appreciate it!

  • Ashley DeRossett

    Ashley DeRossett

    Dimarie- My monsters are gone, I put them in the closet…LOL Thank you for going to see my work! And I’m glad you like some of them. I look forward to seeing new work from you!

  • BLYTHART

    BLYTHART

    Painting this must have been truly emotional for you, but if it freed part of your mind then it was worthwhile.

  • dimarie replied

    Yea….you’d understand that more than the rest…
    I think i may be finally movin on to some of my other real life nightmares now…. not really…but well….this chapter, i’m almost done with it…soon i hope i wont have to think about this again, apart from a detached way…soon his power will be completely eradicated ! I am almost done!

  • itsjustlish

    itsjustlish

    art is about the pursuit of truth…here you have succeeded:) it resonates. despite it’s dark nature i am charmed by it.

  • dimarie replied

    Thankyou itsjustlish….
    Very much appreciated!

  • Mark Ramstead

    Mark Ramstead

    I read your description of how this piece was born. I have been debating writing about my own demons…

  • dimarie replied

    It was hard…but I needed to do it…like alot of my writing….
    I think it helped… of course, since doing this, it kinda opened a floodgate of sorts…into pain i thought i had dealt with… but i dont regret doin this one…or any of it actually, it feels alot better to be “well here i am…i may be broken and bruised but stubborn as all hell and willing to fight…take me or leave me but know that i am honest and proud…” this seems to be a healthier path than the one where i hid all my pain from the world…. sometimes there is too much pain to hide y’know…. but i get distracted….
    I think you should Mark! I really do, and here is the perfect place for it…but even if you dont feel ready to release your thoughts to the world (or even the bubble version of the world…) i really believe that it will help your soul find peace…or as close as we can hope to get… a peace of acceptance of the lot we been dealt with…doesnt mean we have to lay down n die… quite the opposite… again. I’m getting all distracted :)
    Go for it! :)

  • BLYTHART

    BLYTHART

    I may not be expressing this very eloquently, but speaking personally, I reached a stage where I had talked out my problems so much that I started to find them almost boring … and that’s when I felt I could move on. Take his power away from him Jodi …

  • dimarie replied

    I’ve reached a point where i can talk about it with a dry eye…
    and joke about it…
    If i saw him in the street tomorrow… I could walk on by now without wanting to either run or kill him…
    I think thats progress!
    I wont say i’m over it, or that he’s forgiven, or that i have moved on completely… every time i’ve thought that in the past it has reared its ferocious head at me to taunt mock and drag me kickin and screaming into that dark place of fear and regret and pain… so i’m okay with my lot… i just have to accept that i will probably forever be haunted by him, but i can choose to let those ghosts be simply witness to my life, and not a detriment.

  • Junior Mclean

    Junior Mclean

    Very nice!

  • dimarie replied

    Thanx Junior!
    Much appreciated!

  • CapturedByKylie

    CapturedByKylie

    Congratulations on being featured on the falling themed Red Bubble home page. July 29th 2009.

  • dimarie replied

    Thankyou CapturedByKylie :)
    This piece is a very personal one.. was hard to do, and more so to add here for all the world to see…
    thanx. your comments appreciated alot!

  • Lynsye Medalia

    Lynsye Medalia

  • dimarie replied

    Thanx Lynsye :)
    Very much appreciated!
    and a screen shot too! wicked :)
    Glad you liked my piece, is always exciting to have work on the home page :) Nice selection you chose too, as I saw over in the forums that this “theme” was your suggestion, so double thankin ya :) xoxox

  • kaotic-shell

    kaotic-shell

    amazing!!! reminds me of the Evenescence video

  • dimarie replied

    Thanx kaotic -shell.
    I gotta admit I’ve never really been into Evenescence.. infact this whole time i thought they were spelt/called Effervescence Lol.
    I dont get to be the one in charge of tunes here, as my man is the muso, and whenever home is either playin his own music, or playin guitar… I’m addicted to film moreso than tunes, and so tend to listen to whatever is on (with exception of top 40 which i dont dig)
    the music in southland tales, i love that..
    so yea.. thankyou for your comment, sorry to dissapoint you in that it actually doesnt have any connection with that band, this piece is , unfortunately, straight from life… memory.
    xoxox

  • kaotic-shell

    kaotic-shell

    oh you didnt dissapoint :) i think its great that it can hold different meanings for differant people :) and still its a beautiful piece!!
    xxx

  • Lynsye Medalia

    Lynsye Medalia

    You are very welcome! :) Your piece just really caught my eye, both the artwork and the story behind it! :)

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