Comforting words of depression help my hopeless mind come to a conclusion that it wishes it would not find.
Unfortunately, I have to make my decision.
My timid mind falls to madness as it tries to comprehend a happy ending.
The future is not quite as bright as it once was, for I have lost the soul that bound my happiness so willing to this earth.
Two roads, two choices, two ways I must think to go; but only one will be the result.
For my love I lack the patience to know what is truly worth being.
One way may lead me to the future I had lusted over for so many years, the perfect life, the perfect world.
But the other way is much more adventurous and fun, yet it lacks the emotional depth of the first conquest.
Neither push me away, for I am not afraid of either outcome.
Though, for that fault, neither drag me towards them in a more sufficient manner.
I cannot simply sit and watch my life go by me as I stand here waiting to get the strength and courage to choose a path.
But I am unable to choose one without feeling a loss for the other.
My nails dig deeply into the soil and my motion sprouts the earth’s blood.
I cannot be who I am and who I want to be.
I cannot be the best and the worst and myself.
I can only be one person, can only take on one life.
But which should I choose?
And how do I leave the other behind?
My mind snuggles up and locks itself inside my confusion.
My heart dives deep into my soul to look past my current emotions and see what is truly the best for me.
Whichever I choose I feel I will never be fully fulfilled and shall never be happy to the fullest degree.
I cannot pain either path, and I cannot wound myself.
And for that I show that I cannot choose between the two and I am at an impasse in my life.
My final fate will decide it all.
And for that I am not ready to know my future, for I don’t want to know what I have left out.
But I must make my final decision, and stick to my actions as if they were words engraved in iron.
I only hope to not hurt anyone, and to be happy with the rest of my life.
Love, my love, my life, my path, which shall I choose?
Which shall be my destiny?