Skipping the heartbeat to my own blood,
Pumping away the veins that I love,
For you aren’t even close enough to feel me,
Brushing up against your skin,
Brushing up against you,
Brushing up against like the wind,
Shoving over you like the sand that flies,
From these dogs’ feet as they go rushing by,
They were rushing,
Rushing by,

My heart closes as I step inside my mind,
The heartbeat will never realign,
I am pushing out at my ears,
But no one seems to hear my screaming,
Breathing like a panting dog,
Underneath my sanity I am sweating my integrity,
The wind is howling past the trees,
Leaves blowing into my eyes,
Never again shall I realize,
For I have taken my vow of silence,

Tough to get through,
Hard to tear apart,
Feelings bottling up inside me,
I feel like I may fall apart,
Exploding over everything,
Am I going crazy now,
My mind is flying away,
My body wont tell me how,
To live,
To be,
To fight,
To be free,
I am waiting,
I am patient,
I am trying to believe,
My faith is slipping,
I am hesitant,
But I am still trying to believe,

The sky is falling down upon me,
My future is running out the door,
My past is crashing down around me,
What more could hell drive me towards,
The body that I have is aching,
My mind is spinning out of control,
Just try and live and don’t hate me,
For I know only what I’m told,

And I am trying to believe,
I am trying to not give in,
I am trying to succeed,
I am trying to begin,
I am trying to allow myself to over come my fears,
I am trying to improve my life,
I am trying to stay here,

Without the close guidance you once gave me,
My life is turning into a mess,
Without you here by me constantly,
I am starting to repress,
My soul is swirling into Satan,
The devil is deep within my heart,
My goals are no longer about me,
When will my life re-start,

I am brushing up against you,
So close you don’t even feel me,
My heart is spread out on the floor,
Please help me,
Please save me,
I am becoming someone I don’t know,
How could I so quickly go,
Without you I am lost,
But I am trying,
Trying to believe,

Why wont you believe in me,
Why wont you feel for me,
Why wont you get down off your pedestal and breathe with me,
Why wont you help me,
Why wont you suffocate the lies,
Why wont you come down to earth and sit beside me as I cry,

My blood is spread across the earth,
There is no point to overturn,
Your mind is mine forever more,
So why wont you just let me feel for,
I am trying,
I am trying to believe,
My blood is pressing against my sleeve,
And I’m hurting,
I’m hurting because you can’t see,
How much you mean to me,
How much I need you,

And I am trying to believe,
I am trying to not give in,
I am trying to succeed,
I am trying to begin,
I am trying to allow myself to over come my fears,
I am trying to improve my life,
I am trying to stay here,

Push a needle through my skin and watch me bleed,
Your heart and soul and ears are all I need,
Don’t underestimate my plea,
Wont you come down to earth and help me.